LDR sucks.

How long can we withstand the distance, I do not know.

But I know that...things will only get harder.

Updates and good news :)

Been spending weeks, mending my CV, writing down my cover letter, searching for potential jobs, preparing for interview and finally ... I am hired !!! :D

Officially starting work on the 26 of March.

Interview sucked, but what to do, I promised to be an extremely hard worker , fast learner and a go-getter. lol.

I swear I am not joking. I didn't do very well during the interview, never gave good interviews before, even though the current job is my 7th job, but 8th role. LOL.

Sadly, I didn't get the role I wanted, or should I say, better at. Public Relations is my forte, but because I procrastinated a lot little, I had missed the opportunity by merely 2 weeks! They just hired someone new before they saw my CV T.T

So I am back with Pavilion, the place I interned before 2 years ago. Instead of doing Public Relations, I will be under Leasing.

Heard its helluva paper work, but I am all in for new challenges yo !!!  Challenges and new environment excites me, don't know why. I love learning new things. Just that I really needa improve on all my languages and how to self promote myself. I think I have high EQ.

Academic wise...probably very average. But please, don't ask me about world news and politics. They bore me. Politics , football and maths bore the s#$@ outta me.

Anyways..my English isn't exactly A grade. BM is half arsed (forgot most when I went to Aus for good), and only know conversational Mandarin and Hokkien. Probably can read more than I write, but still, I feel like a jack of all trades but a master of NONE.

I've started working since 15, done Food &Beverages, Public Relations, Marketing, illegal seller (sold fire crackers and spray paints/ribbon when I was young) , Nursing (for my dad) and now....something totally new...Leasing.

Adventures awaits =] I am officially(soon) an OL (office lady) ahahaha. I love wearing office wear.


Owh... I hate high heels :( I have giant blisters all over my feet now


Severely injured feet...(stole this picture from my own Twitter)

And..got a lot of stares. I know, I am tall and still wear high heels ! Probably looked around 175cm. hahaha. But it makes me look slim ! For the first time I  look at reflections and thought I don't look fat.

Actually, I've lost a couple of weight since I came back to Malaysia. 3-4kgs away from being my "skinny" stage!!! Lost about 3kgs since I came back. Lost about 7 kgs in total since May last year. Hahaha, dam slow right, but I am hoping to lose weight slowly, so that it doesn't come back fast !

I don't know why people say I'll put on weight in Malaysia, with scrumptious food everywhere. They're outside food, true, very fatty, but I have an extremely weak stomach. Been falling sick pretty often...from food poisonings, allergy reactions, heck, even caffeine overdose (from cheap coffees bought from bubble tea shops) can give me panic attacks + extremely high heart rate (which actually creates this "exercise" effect , which tricks your body into thinking its exercising) .

Some which are pretty serious. Had a growth on my neck just last week which THANKFULLY disappeared after a week. I almost fainted while driving alone once, can't stand up immediately or else my vision will be damn blurry, I will feel very giddy and there will be hot flushes on my face.

Agh, will take care soon. Should really stop myself from eating expired food and outside food. I actually miss my own cooking. They're extremely healthy, doesn't leave oil residue in my mouth. unlike the typical chinese cooking at home. They taste natural. Not seasoned. Haihzzzz.

Can't cook at home right now, cause my aunt is the house chef, will be very disrespectful to her. Her food is delicious, just that I feel like I've eaten 1000calories per meal. Oily, porky fatty, fried + thick yummy dark sauce or white starchy sauce. Rich in flavour.

I like bland food. Simple to prepare/cook. I usually stir fry veggies or fish, and put minimal salt , pepper , lemon. Or boil everything with some chinese herbs, very minimal seasonings. My mom has been nagging .. saying I want to learn how to cook our family style cooking, but don't want to see how my aunt cook lunch and dinner.

They are food that I USED to fancy lei :( I do enjoy cooking random stuffs, following recipes, and creating dishes but been so sick so often lately, Eddie grew fatter...and with many people suddenly dying....cancer feels like this disease that is waiting to strike anyone...my relatives all who grew up eating my grandmother's cooking , and now my aunt's(my aunt learn from my grandma) cooking, a lot of them have high cholesterol, diabetes, high blood pressure... means it has got to do with the food we eat. Not just genes. Do you all know, if you were to get a hereditary disease or something all your family members have, say obesity...the chances of you getting is 30% from genetics but 70% from  lifestyle...So, take care of your health !!!


A lot of text, I know...I kinda needa find my camera charger. Ran out of battery and can't camwhore !!! I have a lot of pictures in my handphone though. haha. :D

Okay thats all. Will update soon. Hopefully the next post will be filled with camwhore pictures.

Just randomly writing things that's in my head. I only slept 2 hours today and I had an interview + blisters on my feet. No thanks to 2 big cups of caffeinated drinks yesterday.

=(

http://www.tnp.sg/content/they-died-play

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I don't know why but I kinda miss him.

I know that should he still be alive, we'll only continue to be in touch as Facebook friends or msn friends. Or who knows, maybe 20yrs later if he decide to move to Malaysia or me to Singapore, we could've meet half way and become better friends ?

During uni days, we were merely friends from the same club. Honestly, we don't really hangout outside uni, unless its someone's bday or housewarming (which happened like once on both occasions). That also, out of those 2 times, that one time... I was soooo freakin late (as usual) and I didn't get to see him. 

BUT , I received a text msg (from his gf) saying he wanted to see me actually, weird huh. Like I suddenly received an sms from an unknown number that says "jw was looking fwd to see u actually", and I had to go through people's phonebook to find out who is it, and turns out it's his gf's number. Dont ask me bout their rship, like kinda dysfunctional or maybe it's just some prank. But his gf did that kinda stuff couple of times edi !!! 

Anyway I am writing this down not to self promote, but in hopes that I will remember this and also the feelings I felt losing him as a friend. 

I know u geddit, this guy thinks I am attractive...but hardly ever anyone thinks so, or at least, confront me and tell me straight to my face. Or at least theres NO other person who's labeled as "the guy who calls Michelle chio all the time". People around me, calls him as that. When I was about to break the news to Eddie regarding his death, I asked Eddie if he remembers him, he's like "ohhhh the guy who always call u chio one right"

Because with every compliment I get, there are always people who will also point out my flaws, like I am too tall, big boned, hunched, big cheek bone, the list goes on. Like "u're pretty but a bit too big size". -___-

But when it comes to him, he made me feel special ? Regardless of how shitty I looked, he never said anything. And d'u know, I am actually taller than him also? But he never said anything about me being gigantic, or implied anything along those lines.

But flashes of memories when I think of him was more towards our first impression. He was my treasurer's housemate. So went to my treasurer's house to have meeting, and thats when I first saw him. He was cooking lunch ie. noodles + tofu + fish cake + abc sauce + many other seasonings !!! And he cooked really a lot !!! So he offered my friends and I, with his smiley face. And we just met for the first time...he doesn't mind sharing same chopsticks with us !!! :O 

Well as usual, I didn't eat it. Sighhhh ! I have a bit phobia sharing things, esp food with people, except my bf of course. Sometimes I force myself to share just so that people won't feel rejected.

And since that first meeting, I see him more often during my club events, meetings and activities....

Maybe, because he passed away at such an early age, that I feel extra sad for him, and felt horrible. Horrible that life had been too unfair to him. Not only that, since I knew him before, could I have done something/anything to make him happier in this world before he left? Learnt from someone that his family background isn't really a happy one. 

Went to his funeral couple days back at Singapore (wed29/2 - thur 1/3). He look really handsome in his funeral pic :) In his ivory white casket, he was wearing a suit. Even in death, his face was smiling, not with teeth of course. 

Sigh. Its quite sad actually, to lose a friend that u have some special memories with. How much more in future, if I were to lose more? Not cursing anyone, just saying. Who knows I'll die first? Who'll be sad? Who did I made feel special? Did I do anyone wrong? Will the person who hates me, forgive me or curse me all the way down to hell? Will anyone miss me? Who'll feel my loss? 

But I will stay alive for as long as possible, for the sake of my parents. My friend's mom can barely stand, and was hysterical. Not saying shes insane, saying that the pain of losing a child is so intense...that it make your knees weak by the sight of his/her funeral picture. The "funny" thing was... I was the only person (along with my bestie) who saw his real mother. Other friends saw his stepmom and thought its his real mother, and thought his family members were all doing alright (not many people know about his family background).

I know as we grow older, there will be more of these to come. Heck, just 2 days ago, my friend's sis' bf passed away, and he also just graduated and came back from Melbourne, for good.

Life is extremely fragile. Whoever who said that human body is actually powerful and capable of many things we think are impossible, u're FXXXing wrong. This week itself, I heard of like what, 4 deaths? My friend, friend's sis' bf, friend's cousin...and my friend's place in Singapore that I stayed at, had 1 funeral in the building. 

Thats too many deaths to hear about in 1 week. 

Stop dying !!! 

R.I.P...

Just lost a friend. Although we're not that close, but close enough to feel the pain.

He's the definition of a fun uni life. He's one of the ONLY FEW guys who made me feel attractive. He is from Singapore, hence he's the first person who calls me "chio" (find the definition yourself!).

Always call me "chio" in sight, during my club events, he was there to help...even with specks looking really stressed up cause of the preparation of club events, he'll tell me I am "chio".

During one of another committee's birthday, I wore this "happy birthday" specks, he was sitting right opposite me, and shouted "WOW really so chio lah you".

Sometimes even his gf (yeah he has a gf) sms me saying her bf thinks I am chio.

Once we chatted on msn until 4am.

You are too sweet (especially your mouth), it may all be white lies... but a lot of people like to be reminded that they're pretty (no one's ugly unless your personality suxx).

Well, those are the only few memories of you and I. And also u with your camera, snapping pictures and candid of me all the time especially (during events)!!!

Well , it was fun while you were here.

See you at your wake. I think you're worth it.










 (Last pic my face kena blocked)

And loads more events ...

Sigh , I know I threw him the cold shoulder cause I feel uneasy when people compliment me head on/face to face.

So, see ya real soon !

I yam lay Z

Not very hard to guess my title ahahaha.

Been back in Malaysia since 29Jan and all I did was laze around and go out OCCASIONALLY.

Weather's been too hot, my heart's been missing my bf, did loadsa "retail therapy", spent almost RM5K (don't know how the F I did that), got myself curfew-ed by my dad...yada yada drama.

Also, I realised my old friends has changed and groups & groups of them have split up. Like they don't hang out with each other anymore, and I find it awkward for them to ask them out together. So I've been hanging out with like people 1 by 1. Le sigh.  Worse thing was that they are all guys -_-. I've like easily 6-8 guy friends to hang out with and only a group of girls !

Can't hang out with my night time buddies anymore, too cause one more time I come back before 12am, I think I will suffer from hearing problems. Parents will scream like they never scream before x10.

Are all these caused by the really hectic working life of my friends' ? Or the fact that I didn't come home for 2 years, hence we grew apart?

Things seriously changed greatly.

 A photo of a picture of myself in my iPod which I gave to Eddie :(

Will update more la, only manage to upload 1 picture cause my net suddenly turned sucky !



Rants:
Honestly I have probs hanging out with most girls. They need to be fetched, sent home, pampered, given in to...and then hear them all whine whole day especially on why no guys go after them. hellooo??? u're mid 20s , and if no guys ever went after u, u needa do a personality check YO !!! 


If you're not very attractive, then u gotta invest a little in ur personality. Also, times has changed....guys are fussy in this time we're in , and if got to fetch u, and then send u home and all, u think so free arh? Jam everywhere somemore.  We girls have to depend on ourselves on everything already. I really feel like a man each time I hang out with girls like that. I am a girl, too u know.


I believe we girls n guys have the same role. If we need to meet somewhere, we make our own way there, unless we live like super near la. Pissed off ! 

2O12.

Every year without fail, I'll make resolutions, same old new ones.  Resolutions from past years that didn't resolve will be brought forward to this year !!! 

But I am already in my mid 20s. I guess, its the time to stop acting like a baby. So I will therefore,

1) Act like my real age....

2) KICK start my career.

3) Be completely $$$ independent.

4) Learn to accept everyone's flaws and stop complaining

5) Slim down....YET AGAIN. 

But this time I am serious (as with every beginning of a new year, where u feel more determined haha).

But I think I am really serious this time. Time is not waiting for me, if I continue the same lifestyle, I will never be able to look better if I continue procrastinating. Wrinkles ARE popping (and so are pimples WTF) . 

Since I am going to be away from Eddie, this means I will have a lot more time for myself and I am going to spend every minute of it, improving myself not only physically but intellectually!

Anyway.... I wanna aim for ...

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A really, really tone body. Not muscular, but tone, exactly like the one above. 

I don't know how I am going to do it, but right now...its now or never T.T Hopefully I earn enough to hire a personal trainer, or get a good gym buddy ^^ We can help motivate each other yo !!!  If not, I'll be running alone 247 in the gym/at home ........

I remember last time when I was skinnier...I wasn't happy with the way I looked even though I have reached my targeted weight... I was extremely flabby. So right now I'll aim for tone and of course lose a lot bit of the excess fats.

Too high a target ? I hope by end of 2012, I'll be at least half way...

PS. im really really excited to be going back to Malaysia for good :D:D:D 

You're beautiful.

Omg. this new piece of All-in-One PC by ACER just got announced !!


It's such a gorgeous piece ! If only its not black entirely. Not really a fan of black desktops.

Im going to getchu!

Tech Junkie

I am so into technology nowadays (and also interior designs for bedroom + cars - more on that later)!!! But among all that, technology has always been this thing I read regularly.

Been reading all the latest news about phone initially because I really need a new phone once I go back Malaysia, refreshing Engadget as often as I can...and then when there are no more news about latest OS and phones....I got CRAZY.

I started "updating" myself with knowledge about the latest Television, Speakers, Headsets, Monitors, Tablets, Cameras, and even Wii, Xbox and Sony Playstation -_- .

AND GUESS WHAT, THE MORE I KNOW ABOUT THEM, THE MORE I WANT AND ITS FRUSTRATING BECAUSE I LACK THE FUNDS TO GET THEM T.T

Ok. So now this is the IDEAL plan I have in mind once I step foot in Malaysia for good.

1) Beg my dad for Samsung Note in White ! 

Because it's going to look weird if I were to answer a call the usual  way like :

I would need bluetooth headset ! And I googled this really cool one called JawBone Era:

2) Beg my dad for a car- preferably Honda Jazz Hybrid that's coming to Malaysia next year or 2013 or Suzuki Swift. Either one will do, as long as they have bluetooth in the car !

3) Clear my mom's stuff out of my bedroom, and rearrange all the furnitures. Have a proper dressing table and large ass mirror :D 

My ideal dressing table would be to have rectangular mirror like pic on right, width like pic on left, but a lot of compartments like pic on right...but must have leg room like pic on left -_- 

4) Buy a desktop with a huge ass Monitor that is Touch Screen (Acer or Samsung) !

5) Buy a Samsung Smart LED  TV  (and hang it on my wall)

6) Buy speakers and place it around my room :

7) Buy sofa bed 

8) Change my ceiling lights and fan :

HEH.

Good luck to myself  getting all of them !!! I even contemplated getting a PSP, WII OR XBOX but decided to scratch that -_-. And get a tablet !!! None that I am happy of yet. 

I know its TMI, actually I am writing this as a mental note to self when I go back :D:D:D!!!

:)

I think I have changed my perception.

I used to hate guys who has many histories, cause it just feels like getting together with another girl's leftover x10000.

I fell asleep in a friend's place one afternoon, and he came over to wake me up, by using a finger and slide it across my forehead.

I was gently woken up. Its probably a skill he has learned from dating so many girls, but what I felt was a good feeling.

First impression, I was already swept off my feet (he's someone who's going after my friend). He already earned my brownie points.

This world needs more guys who knows how to treat a girl right.

An old song to share :


love this emo song !! It's been over 10 years since I last heard it.

Not the only one.

Years ago, if I were to be in a relationship, I would have done ANYTHING just to be with him. Regardless of where, and I would do anything to make sure we're in the same continent (one of my ex was from New Zealand). Young and foolish.

Now, everything is different. I am unwilling to sacrifice that much.

Today had breakfast with friends. From buying the groceries, cooking them, eating them and washing up. Played board games together after that.

The whole time , we bonded. Talked about life after graduating.

Quite heartbreaking.

It's not only me that have to separate with Eddie, 3 other friends have to leave their partner too!! and we all have the same qualms and worries.

A lot of "what ifs (we can't find another guy/girl like current bf/gf)"

It was really a moment of just hearing out, and relating to one another.

My friend was with her boyfriend for almost 5years. 1 year longer than Eddie + I , so I am not in the worse ever position as I thought I am.

Another friend, her Singaporean girlfriend already left for Singapore. If he (Malaysian) were to go back, he'll be separated with his girlfriend too.

Another friend, his girlfriend ( Malaysian), whereas him (Malaysian who migrated to Australia)..it's extremely hard for him to go back!

Oh wells.

It's okay, I am strong  :))

Weight issues ( like whats new right ? -_-)

Ok, got to write stuffs here before my friends all complain I spam my Twitter too much.

Lately , being unemployed ,I have been watching A LOT of reality shows. Not a lot as in varieties, but loadsa episodes from Hell's Kitchen,  and my current favourite ...Supersize VS Superskinny.

Hell's Kitchen is bad for me - for one, toooooo much food talking which made me wanting to eat ALL THE TIME. And also, as you all know, it's the foul mouth Gordon Ramsey who's the host, and guess who the new Gordon Ramsey yo ?! -_- MUA. Been using "stupid cow" and "dumbo" on Eddie. Lucky he doesn't feel anything HAHA.

Supersize VS Superskinny...I absolutely love this show. Not only they're made in the UK (sexy accent man) but also, I can really related to this reality show because they bring together an obese and a skinny person, to swap their food for 5 days. Meaning for 5 days, obese person eat skinny person's food (and portion), and vice versa. A qualified doctor is the host of the show. There are a lot more to it , watch it for yourself. I want to talk about me now.


I was both morbidly obese before, and also suffered anorexia during high school ( I am not stick skinny because it was short lived la, dad found out). SEE , fucking weight issues & peer pressure.

When I was reaching the peak of my weight (approx 13 years old), I only knew that food makes me happy. I didn't know how to lose weight then, cause I thought we'll keep growing and growing as we age. I thought fat/obese is the way I am suppose to look from birth, as how skinny people are suppose to look. I thought looks are destined. Not something we can change.  Guys made fun of me the whole time. Whilst I secretly liked a few guys before, I hated guys more than anything. I liked them but I always imagined a future life of me alone in a hut (of all kinds of houses) and a cupboard full of my big baggy comfy clothes -_-

Until that one fateful day, I can't take it anymore, and having someone to believe in me for the first time,  it was world-changing. Read more here

Then it took me 3 years to slim down to look like a normal overweight girl. I was really happy when I can finally fit into an XXL size, and didn't have to tailor make my school uniform... And at 16 years old, I turned anorexic. I remembered eating Jacob's high fibre low-salt biscuit/cracker.

 2-5 pieces per day, for 2 weeks ! Some days I skipped eating altogether and just drink water. On top of that, I exercised. Little - no food and exercise. I lost 6kg in an instant. But my skin was yellow and pale, I look lifeless and I was balding ! Well friends complimented that I am looking better as I got skinnier, but dad thought otherwise. He noticed almost immediately that I was suffering from anorexia. The first week I lied to him that I ate already before going out dinner with them family. Second week I tried the same thing, but he just told me off to "I WANT TO SEE YOU EAT AND FINISH UP YOUR RICE.DON'T BE STUPID"

Well, my dad is quite smart la, so that exact sentence kinda woke me up actually. Didn't know how that simple sentence made me realise I was doing it all wrong, and I started eating normally. That 6 kgs...came back almost immediately (took less than a week!)


Okay, back to the show..

I find it really unfair. I actually eat as much as those "Super Skinny" people. Maybe there are many other factors, but still, we ate little calories.  I always limit myself to approximately 1.4k calories per day.

As I may post a lot of food pictures, portraying that I eat a lot, it's actually quite the opposite. I eat normally. Some girls I know, eat fruits only the whole day. But I have more varieties.

Like whenever I eat outside, I always leave 1/4 to half my portion untouched. Hardly finish my food, unless I skipped a meal. If I cooked, its mostly soupy based stuff, or things with a lot of veggies + fish and hardly any oil. Whenever I eat bread, it's usually 1-2 slices for a meal. If I do eat 3-4 slices, it's brunch.

Heck, lately I eat damn little :( Starving most of the days because I don't have money to eat. Like today, I ate 2 small slices of bread and 1egg omelet for brunch, and ate outside noodles half portion for early dinner. At night when I got hungry, I drank bubble tea -_- (green lemon tea with rainbow jelly and aloe vera, less sugar). I only consumed about 1k calories at most today ! I walked a lot today too :( So 2bread +1egg, half plate noodle and 1 bubble tea today.


But why am I not even near their weight !? 

Some days I do binge eat, but its like say less than 10 days a year?

Haihs.

Am I fat?

Is the question I ask my boyfriend EVERY FRICKEN DAY we talk to each other.

Not only that, I also asks if

"I put on weight"


"My make up is nice"


"I look good in this"


"He noticed my double eyelid" (sometimes I wake up with double eyelids but nowadays my double eyelids are kinda permanent :D )


Why?

Because we're insecure like that.

I know, not every girl is like me, and not every guy can tolerate this.

But, a positive remark WILL make me/us feel better.

Some of us are so insecure, even a 1mm increase on our eyelids, we jump for joy and feel prettier already. Guys hit on us, we can brag whole day and whole night, but if someone insults us, we'll remember it and feel crappy till the end of time.

Well, maybe I am extreme. Cause all my LIFE, I've been judged based on my looks.

When I was obese - talk of the town, slimmed down - talk of the town & society nowadays isn't very kind. It should make me stronger - true, but my scarred heart can only take so much.

Farewells.

Things I absolutely hate about studying overseas is that :

1) You'll get extremely attached to a place

2) Sooner or later, you'll have to say goodbye to friends you've met locally or from other countries. 

Last week I've just celebrated a friend's farewell. It's really sad, because she actually reminded me of me. She has gone back to Singapore, and shes leaving behind not only her friends, but also her boyfriend. But its harder for her cause her boyfriend is a Malaysian! Either ways, if my friend were to go back Malaysia, they're still going to be apart !

So never date someone who's from another country :S  Singapore and Malaysia is still alright, quite near, but from Hong Kong or Maldives, then a bit too hard.

SO.. we went to this breakfast place next to a lake. 

Lush green sceneries, ugly ducklings and beautiful swans for your viewing.

 

 

Eddie's breakkie & mine :

Love it when there are lemons in the water :

The guy who claims that having a girlfriend made him fat (got caught red handed stealing food from my plate):

At night, we went to catch TACO TRUCK & Beat Box Burger :

They are like Australian version of burger ramlee =] Except that they sell mexican food as well, heh.

The menus for both trucks :

Randomly seating everywhere :

2 greedy person ordered this:

 Damn niceeee !!

My SHROOM burger :

 Oh sooo juicy portobello mushroom !!

The end. 

Best Boss Ever.

I 've finally told my boss that I have to leave Boost.

I am leaving not because I hate working there, but cause I got kicked out of Panda's student accommodation and have no where else to stay in Canberra. Not renting a new place cause it just isn't worth it (will incur a VERY much higher cost).

Upon telling him, his first reaction was "Where you staying now?" (he heard wrongly and thought I am homeless). After knowing the whole story, he said he will try to dig out his contacts to see if they have a place for me to rent for AUD500 a month.

In the end can't find any. Not unusual. Cheapest rent here I've heard is AUD800 a month.

So we had a chat a couple days before. He ask me what are my plans when I go back Melbourne. Considering I can't leave Australia for good yet due to my stupid visa problem (still need police check up which might take up to 2 months).

I told him I'll be rotting away, being all jobless cause no one will want to hire me as I have a possibility of not being around during summer. I jokingly said I can slim down naturally as I'll be starving myself for 2 months cause have to depend on savings.

Instead of laughing, he looked very worried. He said he will help me and he really did (have to highlight cause I've heard enough of people volunteering to help but in the end disappear/no news!).

He gave me a lot of shifts so that I can earn money from him to last me till November.

He said if I am still around during summer, I can come back Boost Canberra anytime and he will take me in.

He also said he will be my referral, and if I want to work in Boost Melbourne, he call me to get the boss there to call him so that he can try to get me a job there.

I told him to give shifts to new people to train them up as I will be leaving at the end of the day.

He replied "I can train the new people anytime, but you have only two weeks to earn enough money to survive".

All these left me TOTALLY SPEECHLESS. I was touched beyond words. Felt extremely guilty,too.

I've been sharing a lot of stuffs that are not very nice about him with other colleagues, almost threw a fit and storm out of the shop halfway working cause argued with him, and despite all these... he still cares.

I have had bosses who cut my shifts drastically from 5-6 shifts to 2 shifts weekly solely because they heard that I am going to quit, and they rather train new staff, or pay old staffs who are staying. Never even ask about my well being, future plans.etc.

Gosh, I ♥ my boss now. He's the best.

And he pays REALLY REALLY REALLY well. Next two weeks's pay can last me 1.5 months. On top of that he's very generous with gift cards, and even profit earned..10% will be given to us as "bonus/tips". Where to find bosses like this?!  A lot of bosses I know of, would rather keep their profits to themselves.

I really want to stay now. sigh.


Glad I did him proud :

My manager and I got our shop's first 100% when HQ (headquarters) sent a spy to rate our shop for QC (quality control) !!!! =D

Recovery.

Been emo-ing freaking hell a lot about a decision and yes, there is a very high possibility that I'll be going back Malaysia...

FOR GOOD

Why so reluctant?

Not because I am going to start having curfews once I am back and getting myself tied to my parent's apron...but a whole lot of people, memories and things I am leaving behind !!

A whole lot of friends from different nation and locals that I might not see ever (unless I earn loadsa money myself or marry a rich man to travel to 20902 countries to visit all of them), friends from Malaysia also going to stay in Australia, new found favourite food, favourite Aussie street, favourite past time ...my lifestyle away from Malaysia, its just going to disappear.

I rant the other day on Twitter, saying how I hate moving from places to places, cause it only means me missing MORE places and people. Last time it used to be just Melbourne and Malaysia. Now , I am going to miss Melbourne, Canberra, and Sydney ...when I go back Malaysia. My friend replied my Twitter and said its the disadvantage of being a "global citizen". It truly sucks.

The more you explore, sure it open your eyes to more exciting things, but when you want to revisit, there is only 1 YOU , limited time and money.

SIGHHHHH.

Just the other day, my friend sent me an ebook about our star sign. I am a Leo, and that ebook is correct. Leos are sentimental. I have feelings for almost everything. Aih. I will miss everything. Aih.

Anyway my birthday just passed and I didn't do anything about it, except lay on bed , had a bottle of wine with Eddie and a few small cakes while watching movie. Camwhored too.

A lot more camwhore pix. IN YA FACE !

Sigh lah. sighhhhhhhhhhhh.

Hate bonding with places.