never in my life...

Its a norm for Australian companies to direct their calls to India (to save labour costs) but of course by saving a fraction of their $$$, things will not be as smooth sailing as expected.

Booked a shipping company to ship my stuffs back, and I had to call a couple of times.

The operator and I JUST couldn't understand each other at all very well. 

I had to spell my name, followed by a word. 

For example, M for Malaysia, I for India, C for China, H for Happy, E for Elephant, L for Lion, L for Lion, E for Elephant.

I did that for each and every alphabet of my  FULL name, but guess what, when I received the quotation...:

FIOW LING?????

I remembered very clearly I said S for Superman.... (My Chinese name = Siow Ling) and she still put F ? Fuperman ??? Dafuq?!

But I admire her creativity. It's the first time people spelt my name like that.

Dilemma.

Torn and tattered.

Been crying until I got sick of it and print screened my crying face, it kinda cheered me up, seeing how stupid Eddie look while talking.  

HAHAHA.

I am insane, showing my crying & whiny face. I think I look good crying !



but doesn't feel good AT ALL. sigh.

Shucks to be in this position.

I want to go back Malaysia, I want to be in Melbourne, but I also want to be in Canberra.

HAHAHA, I'm typical huh, indecisive and stupid.

Lesson not learnt.

Just 2 days ago, I weighed myself, and felt extremely depressed, cause I didn't see any significant weight loss, even though I look slimmer physically.

I whined, talked to a few people, asking them why did I gain weight instead?! In fact I weigh lighter when I was fatter. Don't tell me I have loads of muscles now after 5 weeks of exercising vigorously and work?! Why my fats are still as clingy as ever!?

Even though weight is just a number, as long as my physique improved....... but I have always been very dependent on the scales to give me a rough estimation if I lost weight or not...because I don't quite believe what people tell me. To me, whatever positive stuff anyone say to me, are just white lies.


Mirror = TRUTH! 

So whenever I say I am fat, I NEVER expect people to say "No la, you're so slim and pretty and tall and fair..etc" .

Anyway to cut the crap, yesterday I had a sinful dinner T.T

First staff meeting for Boost Juice, to introduce us the new manager. A few staff didn't turn up, a few staff left immediately after meeting...but the boss already ordered 6 pizzas !!!!

6 pizzas to share among 7 remaining people. Panda and I really wanted to leave, but we felt bad somehow cause we're quite close to out boss (heh, we're good at ass kissing).

We ate in the dark!! Picture quality sucky cause it's pictures are from my BB.

I had....5 sinful slices!!! :'( TBH, I can eat more, but I stopped at 5 slices. Why some girls eat so little ???Make me feel like a pig because I can finish 1 whole pizza by myself !!!!!

Well,  the calories of 5 pizza is equivalent to 1 k calories. Gosh, I am heavy and yet I ate 1k calories for dinner.

Went to gym after that nasty fatty meal until the gym close. Burnt about 700-800 calories on cardio !!! Was so guilty that I powered up on all my exercises (rowing, elliptical , threadmill) and burnt that amount of calories within 1 hour 20minutes! My highest personal record ever!!

Then today morning have cereals (200 cals) and a nut bar (225 cals) , lunch had Sumo smoke salmon salad half wrap ( 350 cals) and a few Boost smoothie (600 cals)  ...I think I kinda overshot my calories intake for today, so went to gym after work (-700 cals ), and had 1 nut bar (225cals), 3 apples (210 cals) and 2 orange (100cals).

In total I consumed 1210 calories today!! Sigh , my BMR is only 1.4k (meaning when I lie down on my bed whole day, my body burn only 1.4k calories).

T.T But apples and oranges should'nt be too damaging T.T

I fail as a Chinese.

Working in a foreign country, especially in Canberra, whereby white people > Asians (unlike Melbourne), its very common to be stopped by Asians, speaking their "mother tongue language" to you.

Whilst working at Boost few days ago, there's this lady, obviously from China, ask me if I can speak Chinese. My Indian boss straightaway assume I can, and call me to talk to her.

I told her I understand but I can't really speak that well.

So she ask me "那可是什么？“ ("What is that ?" ) pointing at the  wheatgrass.

(I FML-ed in my heart)

ME "ERRR...  那可是wheatgrass"  （"that is wheat grass" - I DONT KNOW WHAT IS WHEATGRASS IN CHINESE!!)

China woman " ????, 可以喝的吗？“ ("can drink one ah?")

ME：”可以啊，你可以喝in a shot glass or mix in your smoothie"  (you can drink in a shot glass or mix in your smoothie - GAVE UP SPEAKING CHINESE IN THE END)

China woman "Oh”

AND LEFT WITHOUT SAYING BYE NOR BUYING ANY JUICE FROM MY SHOP!!

Sigh.
4th year here, did a lot of damage to my Mandarin. I used to be able to speak quite alright with it. In fact, Mandarin used to be this language I was comfortable speaking in, but now...no more :(


I am officially a BANANA - YELLOW OUTSIDE, WHITE INSIDE !

KFC Australia.

Okay, running out of happy stuff to post. So I'm just going to talk about food. I don't want my life to sound so depressing when I read back my old blog posts! 

Had KFC for lunch today ! Fattening....

Something in Australia that KFC Malaysia doesn't have ! 

SWEET POTATO FRENCH FRIES!

It sounds tastier...than it actually is..

Its like soggy sweet potato inside, and the crunchy bits outside .. sprinkled with salt ??? :S I would prefer it without salt !!! Its like sweet inside..salty outside. weird combination.

 And also had a cute snack box :

The box is actually really tiny!  I have large hands!

But KFC Popcorn Australia beats KFC Popcorn Malaysia anytime!

I hardly eat fast food (had to eat bitesize food cause I was in the train,less mess)....but the last time I had KFC Popcorn in Malaysia...it's like batter and chicken powder inside.

Hardly any meat!!

 But KFC Popcorn Australia is like tiny size nuggets! Juicy bite size meat!

Only thing lacking in KFC Australia...

That's right,

KFC CHEEZY WEDGES AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

When Cheezy Wedges was first introduced by KFC Malaysia, I remembered a time whereby I was still with my first bf, whilst waiting for him at Midvalley Megamall, I ordered two box to eat by myself. MUAHHAHAH. Then he came to find me, I was sooooo embarrassed that I ate THAT MUCH...first love what..had to take care/jaga my image so that I don't chase him away... I quickly threw away the first empty box! 

He saw only 1 empty box of Cheesy Wedges and commented that I ate so much..imagine if he saw TWO. HAHA. Until now, he doesn't know ~~ ^^

.......

As usual, worked today. Got kinda turned off by an incident. 

There was this customer... he was rather good looking. So I paid extra attention to his needs. As usual, I noticed that he went to the toilet, and came out. I went in to the toilet (we only have 1 unisex toilet...not that desperate to follow people into the gents!) , right after him to check the toilet to make sure our toilet was clean when he used it.

FML!!!

HE DIDN'T FLUSH HIS PEE!!!! 

Oh, the gory!


Is it so hard to flush?

After that, each time I look at him, I just wrinkle my nose in disgust :( You shouldn't have..!

Brokened trust.

He said to me that only during the first year of our relationship...he felt that we're meant to be.

Its our 4th year together this year.

Just because of one stupid lie I made last time, the trust is gone.  A lie that was made, to protect him. To make him less sad, but it was all misunderstood.

Cause he knew something from long time ago, that drove him EXTREMELY BERSERK, almost called the police. I was worried he'll react the same way, and all I did was tell this friend who was there to not tell him anything. Is this wrong?

That fucking guy (who's his friend,too) betrayed me and told him everything. I am super tempted to delete him off my Facebook, fucka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've learned. I know how to protect myself now. I didn't even freakin put on make up to club whilst I was at the ALCOHOL AND SEX camp. I wore a dress with full length pitch black thick tights underneath while other girls dance with just bra and panties?


OH SO SEXY OF ME , AYE?

I WAS EVEN ON "SOBER DUTY" (duty to be sober to take care of other new girl I've met)!

Do I even look like I'll have sex with random people? Am I even attractive enough to be hit on ALL THE TIME?  BY 18 YEAR OLDS? C'mon man, I'd be super fucking turned off. They are TOO FREAKING YOUNG FOR ME.

I am also facing an identity crisis. I don't know whats the core of my personality. I am bitchy and mean at times, but also very nice and kind on the other hand. So right now, I am just antisocial, or weird. Treating you super nice one minute, and horrible the next.

There are a lot of hot chicks in the camp, that I am like stuck at every guy's blind spot. Loserish guys that can't go for hot chicks only TRIED talking to me. Being a proud person, I don't take losers. I am too good for them. AND I'M NOT THAT CHEAP.

I'm no paedophile.  They are, after all, YEARS younger than me. FTS. No matter how cute/good looking they are...they're still kids.

7 scoops of ice cream in 1 night ! FML !

Honestly, I am really asking for it.

Almost all my relatives have like diabetes, high blood pressure/ cholesterol (except my health concious parents - considering my dad is a doctor) but yet.. I ATE 7 SCOOPS OF ICE CREAM WITHIN 3-4 HOURS ACTUALLY !!!

My first 4 BIG SCOOPS. They are really huge. 

Albeit the next 3 scoops are smaller, but still, they are in "scoop sizes".  Cause customers was allergic to peanuts, and the ice cream had peanuts all over it, so had to make a new one for the customer. 

Cause we made it that basket of ice cream twice (1st basket had peanuts, 2nd basket had TRACES of peanuts - f that customer!) , serving her the third one, very sayang leh if throw..cannot waste food ! Cause if we throw, its like 6 scoops we're throwing. So waitress get 3 scoops and kitchen finished the other 3 scoops. Then my skinny friend didn't want to eat , so I finished it all.

Seriously, I gotta avoid sugary stuff for like 2 weeks?! I've been eating sweet stuffs ON A DAILY BASIS T.T

SOS SAVE MY SOUL (kidneys)! 

I kissed a girl, and I 'liked' it ~

Today, my boss decided that she wants to go clubbing, so ended up we close shop 1 hour earlier ! WOOOHOOOOO!  Happiest day at work, apart from pay day.

But yesterday already got rumours flying around, saying that the boss want to go clubbing, and was thinking to close shop earlier. 

So I went to work half prepared :

 With make up on.

Followed Michelle Phan's basic smokey eye ! But after I glue my eyelids to make double eyelid, all the shadowy part are hidden between the folds, FML. 

Then did my work half heartedly (first time eva) anddddddddddddd after work ....I UNLEASHED THE DEVIL IN ME.

 XXXXXLong Wing Eyeliner . Love my eyes !

Love today's clubbing.  It was a great stress reliever. Danced my heart and fats out.

Sweated like mad.

The whole club...not many people. And bout 1/4 of the club are people I know ! Cause my "Thursday night's dinner gang" and Passionflower friends/colleagues are there !

 Me and dumb dumb, doing stupid faces.

Hot chicks, only from Passionflower.

Miss Socialite and I. I look better with face half blocked. FML.

And the rest of the pictures...no show...NO SHOW !!! Had more pictures than whatever is posted in here...but my camera's flash and I had a love-hate relationship in the club hence less picturessssss.

Also, I kissed a girl for the first time ever !!! :S Going to be awkward in my work place :s

Then after clubbing, go pigged out. F...dance like hell and sweated, my first ever work out in weeks, but go eat and wasted all the effort. Even the rain didn't stop me from going places to eat.

 Cause ChinaBar (our favourite supper restaurant) was full , went to a random shop nearby :

 REALLY YUMMY PORK COOKED WITH 3 KINDS OF MUSHROOMS!

I ate 1/4 of Eddie's and finished my noodles squeaky cleanly. F it. Eddie hated my noodles. Too spicy for him and I love spicy !!! Hope I lao sai diarrhea later!

That's all folks.

PS. Another weird thing happened again today !!! As I entered my house alone after work to get ready for clubbing (cause Eddie went out earlier than me), Eddie's computer started playing a video. WTF? Am I really thinking too much ? When I went to his computer, it really just started playing only ! I quickly ALT+F4 .

.....

Camwhored with my webcam. Seriously, my webcam is my bestie, as opposed to my stupid camera that's just too clear. Can't airbrush anything nor add/ alter my face cause I don't have Photoshop. The only thing I can do is to add borders to my pictures -.-


Enjoy :

My teeth !

HAHAHA. While removing make up also want to camwhore. F my life !

Left eye : make up and contact lens on;     Right eye : make up and contact lens off (except for some stubborn msacara)

Another picture : 

Excuse my messy background, today panicked cause long time never go clubbing, have to dig out everything and threw everything around when they don't fit, haven't clear yet. Feet damn pain man ! Worked 6 hours, and clubbed 2 hours immediately after that.

Now I really wish my double eyelids are permanent ! *Camwhore alert*

No work today, so went out on a date! Hehe ❤

All "dolled" up. Not really dolled up lah. I wish! Just double eyelid sticker, some mascara, some eyeliner and bb cream.

Loveeeeee the double eyelid !!! My eyes look slightly rounder yeah? and got line !! HAHA Happeh. Eventhough it might not be noticeable to you, but as long as I feel like super confident, can already !!! I am just sooo amazed how just two transparent thin piece of sticker can boost so much confidence.

I am slightly better at applying it already ^^. Wasted like 2-3 PAIRS (4-6 eyelid stickers) just to perfect the skills to use the double sided double eyelid tape (sound confusing?) !

 Camera's Beauty Mode (left) vs. Auto Mode (right).

Why the Beauty Mode made me look jaundice? Isn't suppose to make me like fairer ?! But yeahla, covered my flaws. Auto Mode is soo damn clear until my baby scar can be seen on my face T.T Yesh, I am scar face. Can't see it, then too bad. HAHA. 

 Note to self* cannot open eye completely and smile. Double eyelid not obvious.

 Nice eyes I have ! haha, talk bout self praise !

YAYAYAYAYAYA , after tying my hair, my face is like F fat. I put on weight already...I am those that put on and lose weight dam easily. Sigh. Today is my fat day.

Then go out dinner eat hell a lot some more :(

 AHAHA EDDIE'S NOT READY AND HAD SOMETHING REALLY HOT INSIDE HIS MOUTH

Kena ripped off at Tomodachi ! The takoyaki above with 4 balls = AUD5.50.


3 balls takoyaki = AUD3.50 !!!! I BUY IN 'BULK' LEH. WHY EXTRA AUD2 FOR ANOTHER BALL. Same goes to the gyoza :'( So morale of the story : be patient. Don't personally ask the waiter for the food and wait for it to come out on the sushi train as they will charge you "premium price" (AUD5.50).

 TAKOYAKI ❤ - MY FAVOURITE❤❤❤!!!!!  3 balls from the sushi train.

 Ew spring roll. Looks nice, but taste horrible.

❤ GYOZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ❤ ! Love gyoza too❤❤❤!!!

Ever since I bought my camera, I start taking pictures with this angle :

Got 2 pictures up there also whereby I look up and expose my nostrils completely -_- So I hereby call this the nostril-pose.

Not like my other pictures and angles can't see my nostrils also... sigh. Hate my nose. FML !!! FengShui says my nose is the spendthrift kinda nose...FMLx 2!!! Like kena framed only. I hardly splurge lor okay. 

My cousin's collection of branded bag equals to my few month's cost and standard of living here in Australia! But yet her nose is perfectly nostril-less-when-look-straight! Jealous nia.

So went to watch Harry Potter 7 !! :D Like FINALLY !

Look at that kampung guy in the picture above. Guess who -_-

Ever since he got a Blackberry, he's like my dad. Always on it.

So too bad, have to camwhore with him texting. In the picture on the right, he don't look too bad over there.

Then I trust him with my camera, to take pictures of my face in another angle :

Blurry and I-look-ugly pictures of me !! And usually when you're the one holding the camera, you should look like the best, but no, he look weird in the picture also -_-.

Then I gave up.

 Look slightly nicer now, Him , too.

Our tickets:

X TREME SCREEN aka kena ripped off extra two bucks (talk about businesses nowadays that like stealing money indirectly!

I can never feel the difference between Xtreme Screen and the normal screen. But cause I missed the normal screen time and don't want to be completely outdated with movies, I pay extra lor. Cause the next free day to watch movies at night with Eddie will probably be a week later. I work almost everyday.

When I was taking the picture of the tickets, he's like " NOOOO, you're turning into those kinda girls who take pictures of movie tickets" what the.. is it even a bad thing?

hehehe, my side profile and a bit of my boobies also want to take.