:) Happy

It has been a really long long longgggggggggggg time since I won something. And it is best when you least expect it.

Today, is my club's 2nd Year Anniversary celebration. I went there to show some support, without expecting anything in return.

Travelled all the way there, took me an hour...I was late (AS USUAL)...and ate delicious food.

Then came the lucky draw part, and the number of my ticket was called... 017

HEH, super happy. Won an iPod shuffle just like that.  

So I've just uploaded loads of photos :

Hate the new facebook, but I really like the collage of pictures (of my face) up there. Nicely put together :p

♥ it. 

Best Boss Ever.

I 've finally told my boss that I have to leave Boost.

I am leaving not because I hate working there, but cause I got kicked out of Panda's student accommodation and have no where else to stay in Canberra. Not renting a new place cause it just isn't worth it (will incur a VERY much higher cost).

Upon telling him, his first reaction was "Where you staying now?" (he heard wrongly and thought I am homeless). After knowing the whole story, he said he will try to dig out his contacts to see if they have a place for me to rent for AUD500 a month.

In the end can't find any. Not unusual. Cheapest rent here I've heard is AUD800 a month.

So we had a chat a couple days before. He ask me what are my plans when I go back Melbourne. Considering I can't leave Australia for good yet due to my stupid visa problem (still need police check up which might take up to 2 months).

I told him I'll be rotting away, being all jobless cause no one will want to hire me as I have a possibility of not being around during summer. I jokingly said I can slim down naturally as I'll be starving myself for 2 months cause have to depend on savings.

Instead of laughing, he looked very worried. He said he will help me and he really did (have to highlight cause I've heard enough of people volunteering to help but in the end disappear/no news!).

He gave me a lot of shifts so that I can earn money from him to last me till November.

He said if I am still around during summer, I can come back Boost Canberra anytime and he will take me in.

He also said he will be my referral, and if I want to work in Boost Melbourne, he call me to get the boss there to call him so that he can try to get me a job there.

I told him to give shifts to new people to train them up as I will be leaving at the end of the day.

He replied "I can train the new people anytime, but you have only two weeks to earn enough money to survive".

All these left me TOTALLY SPEECHLESS. I was touched beyond words. Felt extremely guilty,too.

I've been sharing a lot of stuffs that are not very nice about him with other colleagues, almost threw a fit and storm out of the shop halfway working cause argued with him, and despite all these... he still cares.

I have had bosses who cut my shifts drastically from 5-6 shifts to 2 shifts weekly solely because they heard that I am going to quit, and they rather train new staff, or pay old staffs who are staying. Never even ask about my well being, future plans.etc.

Gosh, I ♥ my boss now. He's the best.

And he pays REALLY REALLY REALLY well. Next two weeks's pay can last me 1.5 months. On top of that he's very generous with gift cards, and even profit earned..10% will be given to us as "bonus/tips". Where to find bosses like this?!  A lot of bosses I know of, would rather keep their profits to themselves.

I really want to stay now. sigh.


Glad I did him proud :

My manager and I got our shop's first 100% when HQ (headquarters) sent a spy to rate our shop for QC (quality control) !!!! =D

1 year closer to deathbed..

What is there to celebrate? 

I always find myself asking that.

Time is flying so quickly that I find it pointless celebrating birthdays, in fact..I don't like crowds anymore. I only like sharing this special date with my family members, bf and maybe small comfort crowd. To feel the undivided love they have for me on my "special" day - its enough. No need for presents, just the essentials ; food ( dinner, cake, etc).

I've had parties whereby almost 30people came over. Great big party, my apartment can barely fit everyone, food aplenty, games were wild.. but

Honestly?

It was tiring =( It felt more like having to entertain than be entertained. Even surprise parties....all I felt was obligation to talk to everyone, cause truly, I appreciate their thoughtfulness..but its just me.I am quite on the quiet side I guess. I can force myself to be all friendly and loud,but at the end of the day, I'd be exhausted mentally.

But I don't mind attending functions,as long as I am not the one organising ^^ & have to talk to everyone. 


Birthday... 1  year has passed. I feel more depressed than happy, like really.

Ever since understanding the meaning of death, the loss suffered, the pains that I went through, I wish time will just go  >>>>>slow<<<<<.

Also just had a taste of some bad news right before my birthday. Less of a reason to celebrate. That horrible,horrible news tied down my finances, thus ALSO deterring me from "going all out" on my birthday. On top of that, my return flight to Melbourne was cancelled. A whole lot of money is being wasted to buy new last minute tickets..

I came to Melbourne discreetly, not letting many people know, only a handful, and spend 2 good days alone and with Eddie. Was alone most of the time though, spending a little on food I've missed in Melbourne while giving a few working friends surprise visits to their bakery, cafe...etc.

In a dilemma. I miss my family very much and have an option to go back home for good within 2 months, or waste another 6 months here. Go back home, start on career, & leave a 4 year relationship or stay another 6 months, go back for good & also have a risk of losing a 4 year relationship.

I know the best answer to this, but 4 years to forget, will be like healing from a slit to the throat; death-like and probably need a miracle to recover.

Guys are aplenty. I know. I've dated a few, got together with a few...its hard to find one that I am comfortable with.

Yesterday while playing card games with my friends, seeing my guy friends attacking Eddie, bruising his ego, calling him ball-less for giving me the power to make decisions for him...and him taking it like that, and was not affected at all,my heart felt as if it has liquidfy/melted.

( quite a nice game!! Monopoly card game)

How to find a guy who loves me this much? Who looks out for me, who constantly cares, who ticks out the list of a good boyfriend (except being neat and tidy).

I am not really a good girlfriend material (maybe like Distinction level, not HD - ahaha ^^ ), because my temper is...indescribable.I am literally like a walking time bomb. Just yesterday, I waited 20 minutes for him to come home from work so that we can go out together, around town collecting my birthday freebies...the first stop was to Boost. The queue was long, and he waited with me for 5minutes, and said he can't wait in line with me cause he's too hungry.

I scolded him saying "I WAITED 20MINUTES FOR YOU, AND YOU WAIT 5MINUTES ONLY YOU MAKE NOISE, DON'T HAVE TO WAIT WITH ME LA". I stormed off and went to calm down, while he go buy his "lunch".

After I got my freebies alone,came back home...continued being pissed at him...and he called me to open the fridge. Inside were my favourite cakes and macaroons from my favourite shop. He explained that he couldn't wait with me cause he was worried the shop would close.

Sigh
All good things come to an end?

yumzzzz.

haha stupid picture of him lazing behind me,watching shows.

Sigh, tough decisions. 

Thank yous.

Thanks for all the encouragement, and yah I knoww, people have been telling me on how much I can write when it comes to bitching and blogging (especially after the previous post), but can't think of an extra 100words for assignments.

Now that I re-read the post so many times, I'm hoping it doesn't sound like as if I'm trying to get people to pity me ! It was never my intention. Will NEVER be , too. First time I write such personal, sensitive issue out. Took me 9 years, even though the story is a bit incomplete.

But if you really want to know, find me, look at me in the eye, while I explain to you further, and if you're lucky, I might even show you my photos ( there were many lucky people this year already).

Not online please. because I NEED to see your facial expression (so stop asking,unless you're planning to meet me, humph).

Your face will be the symbol to remind me of my own self-accomplishment, and how it moves...uh, people's face?

Not going to write much, I got exams tomorrow, though open book, but open book exams always spells trouble, or panic. Cause we'll laze so much until the last minute, skim through , and during exams, we'll forget where we saw that particular information, and have to dig the big thick chunk of notes you "kiasu-ly" bring, making a mess on your table.

Friday's exam is the one that I'm dying from. As heavy reading as tomorrow's exam, but CLOSED BOOK. And this, spells "death".

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. ~ Sorry!! there's not many pictures in recent post. Usually I like to use loads of pictures, and the above is the best I can find to describe these 2 post. Lacking time.

WISH ME LUCK!

Appreciation

Dear Mr. Somebody (my #1 stalker :P ),

Thanks for your thoughtful hot steamy lunch box :


When you heard that I wasn't eating well (no meat and green vegetable for 2 days or any warm food..just raisin bread, potato chips and other unhealthy snacks), and wanting to starve cause of the stupid fine... you came to my "stomach's" rescue! Made my day.


It was very much appreciated! I super love the seaweed actually...
yumz , and it's true (with LGM-inside joke) hahahaha :)

Just kidding..... But no thanks for making me fatter. :<


P.S: Bring me to Box Hill tomorrow , pleaseeee!! hehe but I'll be going to gym after class, maybe around noon time! :$

P.S.S HAPPY OR NOT!? lol.