Goshh

Been working ,my gosh I really hate this week's shift.  

Sunrise shift at 8AM is definitely not for me. Every morning I wake up with mood swings, was late, got nagged.

Talk about work, my blood pressure seriously will go sky high. 

Freaking hell fuck guai lous. Guai lous/orang putih/ white people /ang mohs are indeed a whole bunch of fucking lazy people. I will fucking not date a guai lou EVER !!!!!!! Maybe I am unlucky la, or my boss is, hired all fucking lazy people.

They are all selfish, put themselves first and all.

I have to scoop yoghurt and all for Boost drinks, our fridge is kinda spoilt right now, so all yoghurt are rock solid, so have to use a lot of strength to scoop.

Girls usually avoid the yoghurt station, which is natural, I would try to avoid, but not as obvious and as often as them. If I make a drink, I make sure I scoop la. But guys also freaking hell , runaway instead. ZZZzz.  Make drink half way go stop at scooping cause they don't want to scoop.

Instead all my Malaysian friends (4 Malaysians in the shop now) and I if we work together, all of us plan to take turns to scoop, cos they (white people) are obviously USELESS.

With Panda gone, another one on holiday, and 3rd one can't really work so often past few days cause his gf was leaving AU so he took a few days off...my gosh, eventhough I've been standing there scooping whole day say from 8am - 5pm...all them won' t even care, Instead they're are freaking happy !! 

If I see them, they have damn a lot of drinks to scoop, I ACTUALLY HELP. WHY AM I SO FREAKING NICE?!

SO FINE, I endure all these, because moneys good, but DAMN my right hand now hurts like mad, and I get so exhausted from work. 

Worse thing is that I fucking hate my boss la. see me kena bully at work, somemore say 

"SCOOP FASTER".

HONESTLY, I ALMOST QUIT MY JOB TODAY. ALMOST STORM OFF THE SHOP. 

But instead I shouted, CAN SOMEONE SCOOP. I can't stand it anymore.

SIGHHHH TOMORROW LONG DAY AGAIN.

Nevermind, I am going SYDNEY again next Thursday.

FTS. 

Friendships, you've broken it. So be it.

If you're immature, please don't fucking be friends with/get to know me.

Honestly, once I considered you as a friend, I will look at you differently, talk to you about stuffs..times we shared and all, I WILL REMEMBER THEM. EVERY SINGLE MINUTE OF THEM.  Even when it seems like I've forgotten.

My memory is pretty good (my record was memorizing 9 chapters of tutorial question and answer within 2-3 hours for exams - last minute studying la ahaha). Every time I say forgot something, it's only an excuse or just plain lazy.

When a relationship isn't working, its only natural to break up. Don't blame on external sources, it's not about who's fault, not about what's right / wrong, not about distance. WHEN IT'S NOT RIGHT, IT JUST ISN'T.

I know, no such thing as true love, it all depends on commitments - actually level of commitment each partner wants to contribute.

If you are reading this (you know who you are), I've already warn you from the start. I told you that you have a possibility of not lasting with her, but you were stubborn.

 I know from the start that you both are just not right for each other, but you've decided to try your luck. Fine, you got her, but do you know that getting her is more of a bad luck than a good luck? Right now you have 1 year of memories to erase, as oppose to being rejected.

Want to know the painful truth ?
1) LANGUAGE BARRIER - English is not your best language
2) MENTALITY  and MINDSET - fkin made in china brains.
3) CLASHES - our friends can't communicate with you.

Those 3 are enough.

YOU DUG YOUR OWN GRAVE. I tried opposing you going against her, and you went behind my back, don't think I don't know. Now this is what YOU DESERVE.

Actually, I pity Panda for even giving you a chance. Do you know how much she suffered emotionally for you? She tolerate you for 1 freaking year. Do you know that she's not happy to be with you but she gave you 1 year of chance. 1 YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT WAS ME WHO SUPPORTED HER TO BREAK UP WITH YOU. I was her backbone.

TBH, I am truly pissed. Why are you so childish? Both you and your best friend. If relationship doesn't work, try friendship. Why do you mix relationship and friendship ? Why do you mix your best friend's friendship with me? Why is everything all jumbled up?

Love is not about owning someone, not about having them by your side, not about fucking them, but seeing them happy and all settled.

Fuck, I feel stupid for having to educate you on this. You're almost in your mid-20s but you're acting like a stupid 15 year old kid who just broken up with his/her lover.


GROW UP!!! 

You've ended our ties. NO way in hell you can get it back. Good bye. 

Facebook and it's qualms. Relationship status is going OFF.

Recently the bf in Melbourne, must have felt really bored without me.

So he decided to change his relationship status to be in a relationship with another girl (who's also my friend) .

I didn't know until my cousin told me.

I was at work, went to gym and was innocently on my way home.

Nowonder so many people (some friends who NEVER contacted me for AGES) Whatsapp-ed me suddenly, asking me "hey, how's life". Or "How come you're in Canberra". "What are you doing?" . "Hello". "Who is XXX (my friend)" .

Sigh. Only when there's so-called dramas only all the tomdickharry message me - to feed them with juicy gossips.

The worse thing is that, it stirred up so much controversies. My friend's exbf even indirectly pitied me? Some friends who actually cares, I feel like I am bullshitting them, too !

I don't know how to answer all of them , cause it's my stupid bf's sudden decision to play this stupid joke.

I already removed my FB status long time ago.

haha. Eddie got a lot of negative responses.

Whereas my friend got congratulated :

I don't know.

It's funny but its more of a bad funny than a good funny.  I feel like as if  I've been toying with friend's feeling.

Kinda sick of it. 

Low profile from now on. Most pictures won't be spared (except the ones I look good in, haha). 

UPDATE: 

Fkkkkkk I like my face in most of them. Going to put all the pix way at the back. 

Note to self : next rship no pix no status ! 

Dramas and whatnots.

Yesterday, went for a surprise party. Not really close to the birthday boy, but got dragged by bf to go. I didn't want to go loh. Haihz. Become camera woman in the end, and whatsapp & BBM chat the whole time with my real friends and was anti social. 

SOOOOO, the only picture with my face are the pictures I took OF MYSELF before going to the party. 

While waiting for tram. No make up, no photoshop, no nothing. TOOO LAZY to make up and to photoshop. FML!!! I don't seem to care how I look like anymore!  

Took a picture of Melbourne City from the tallest building in Melbourne, Eureka...nice view !

The whole time I was whatsapping also with this one girl, who really wanted to be at the surprise party, wheres I wished I was at home.

She call them friends, but I call it social outings.

To me , friends are people you can act yourself, and be comfy around each other. And when you're being bitchy, friends will tell you off...leading you to the right route, rather than "friends" who bitch behind your back, and then secretly exclude you from events. And then you feel horrible, and being all depressed about it. (unless you tell the person off before already and they are still being anal and stubborn, thats when bitching starts!)

????Just cause they are known as the "cool" / "rich and famous" gang...that "everyone" wants to be in..aih...kinda high school. 

So I just take pictures only, cause she was asking me so much about the party. The pictures are for her to see.


So that's the drama part.

Next, happy stuffs =D My cousin bought me Purple BB Casing and I watched Youtube tutorial don't know how many times, to change the casing myself! Seriously, Youtube is knowledge. I learnt how to jailbreak my iPod Touch myself by watching Youtube (and some guidance from a friend).

The tools and casing :

AFTER :

 Purply..!

Back view!

Just that when the lights are ON, looks  weird like this :

Nevermind lah. Better than boring black.


Oh, something random. I had this for dinner :

RIP FISH !

Hehe, not laughing at the fish's death, but I feel somewhat like a cave man whilst eating this. It's just fresh fish head, seasoned with salt ! Nothing else ! But OUCH, AUD18!!!

But kinda freaky. After I finish the cheeks and the fleshy part of the fish (their "forehead") , kinda scared to eat their lips and brains and etc inside the head :s . Eddie ate its eyeballs though!!! ewwww

Funny Cat Fight in the shop.

Firstly, let me tell you an excuse. A reason for the lack of camwhore photos. The cam-slut has lost her reign.

My face is damn round already. I rather no photos than post up ugly photos of mahself !

But I am going to upload a heart wrenching photo.
Remember last time I was talking about this old man I see so often, using a walking aid , carrying a bag, and still works....I took a photo of him from my Blackberry :

WHY LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! IF THIS PERSON LOOKS LIKE YOUR DAD OR UNCLE OR FRIEND....PLEASE, STOP THEM FROM WORKING. HE'S REALLY REALLY OLD!!


Heart pain yah.

Anyway, some cat fight almost cause headlines for my shop.. Customers and my friend were shouting at each other. I would say it was wrong for my friend, as a waitress, to shout at a customer, but the customer shouted FIRST, and after that looked like she was about to attack my friend, but her friend stopped her.

Who wouldn't shout man.

That is like the summary lah.

To be honest, if I have like really bad temper (which I thought I have), I would've scream and shout long time ago, and get myself sacked.

Come on, even though I am a waitress, I think I have better qualifications, or perhaps, etiquette.  I  THINK I have manners. At least so far I haven't shouted at random people/waitresses before in my life. In fact, I like to talk nicely to them, to dig out more discounts or  larger servings of stuffs. HAHA.

The customer belittled my friend, saying like as if shes not educated. Well, my friend skipped a year and will be starting university soon next week in the top university of Melbourne at age 17.

Seriously, customers have tendency to belittle waitresses, and think that we have no education, thats why we do that. They talk to us very rudely and will not follow rules imposed (such as minimum order of $10 per head on Fridays Saturdays and Sundays.)

Ok, I am going to elaborate further. How could there POSSIBLY be NO OTHER DESSERT that you want.
There were 6 people, they ordered 1 gigantic dessert that cost AUD52, they just need another drink or dessert, to make it up to AUD60. We ran out of ice. They insisted that,  they want icy stuffs, won't settle for anything else and its not their fault that we ran out of ice.

Come on, isn't that a fucking lame excuse to NOT obey the AUD10 per head. I have customers who rather give me the money than to order something else. Its obvious man. You 're just trying your luck, but in the end, my colleague lose her cool (cause you lost yours first, without reading the menu).

Hate it. Hate dealing with people with severe case of attitude problem. Etiquette class should be compulsory for everyone.

Also, hatey selfish people !!!


IM STILL HAVING ISSUES WITH THE FUKER! WHY EACH TIME WE CHAT WE ARGUE ONE!!!!!!!!
Honestly, hes the only person whom I talk to VERY RUDELY. He is very selfish. He is working so much, to save spots for 3 girls he liked, that isn't even loyal to the company.  They are going to leave anytime soon. And he is training me to be a "backup" only. What the F right.

Has it ever crossed his mind that I have surpassed him and that I can take over and SHIFT LEAD HIM INSTEAD? Guess not.

I am going straight to the boss instead.

OhmyG X INFINITY.

I think I have very low  tolerance for certain kind of people.

the latest person I bitch about AGAIN.
u think u urself  damn good ar? even if u are, dont have to boast and brag, and then underestimate people, thinking a firm cant survive on their own and is fully dependant on u.

bring people to the shop, then they dirty everything in there, thinking its their house, cause why? they think u're the superior of the shop, hence making a ruckus in the whole shop. In the end me and my friend clean everything.

K fine, let just pretend they are customers. GUESS WHAT, they are the first EVER "PEOPLE" who stuck chewing gum on my toilet rubbish bin cover, and nose bled until my whole toilet full of blood stains and smells like blood when I cleaned it at closing. 3RD BLOOD STAIN I'VE CLEANED.

U R NOT THE ONE PAYING ME OK.

-nuff said-

May the fittest one survives..

I am being hated a lot at work, or at least that was what I feel. (fb statuses hinting some woman at work to F off...and if I am not wrong, I am only the woman at work to be hated cause other 'woman' are not in charge of anything hence no reason to hate them at all.)

Probably due to the fact that I am getting more anal at work at EVERY LITTLE THING, because if my boss finds fault in it, my ass will be fried.

Also, I am kinda in charge of more stuffs.

I want things to be fair and square, oh boy, you should see how pampered staff reacted to that.

Sigh, selfish people sucks.

I have a boyfriend, friends who work office hours, and working 6 shifts a week.

You don't have a boyfriend, you have conquered most of the day shifts, you have less shifts than me overall, and you're younger than me (less friends at the office force).

Day shifts = 7 lucky person will get it, because only  1 person per day shifts, and 2 person for night. You've been conquering at least 4 day shifts, and only 1 night shift. Me? 5-6 night shifts in a row at times.

Usually during the day, it is super quiet. And its HELL at night.

For the past few months.. I live under the same roof as my boyfriend, but I hardly got time to spend with him cause of the night shifts.

All you want to do is party. You don't even have a boyfriend, and you're plain lazy.

Sometimes I feel that, doing your best , and being the best kinda have its disadvantages. People tend to put you during a more difficult times for the same amount of pay. Which sucks balls.

Now that I have more power , all the older-staff-than-me kinda disrespect me..because they worked in my workplace longer than me...(but I made way less mistakes than them in total).

Seriously, regardless of anything, I am going to ensure that only the best among all the floor staffs remains. The older staffs who went for holidays are coming back. Lousy, fussy ones...be prepared to be sacked !!

You may think that I am doing it for myself. But the fact is, I am doing it for everyone. Everyone's been bugging to get day shifts, NOT ONLY YOU!

Aihs, whatever lah.

Pissy.

Yes, indeed, whoever who makes me angry will have to suffer a whole lot of bitching behind their back, and a lot of angry, snarling, glaring faces FROM ME 247 and that I WILL STOP TALKING TO YOU!

Someone just pissed me off and I am a horrid person as of now, writing this post. So excuse me if I sound like a totally different person all together.

First things first. Theres a braggart in my work place. Boasts like F, thinks he's the best amongst his own colleagues. Bitch about how people are incompetent, and worse, he underestimates people. CONCLUSION, HE THINKS HES THE BEST...... HELL NO!

Heres the thing. My boss wants to promote me (only if I am staying to work there and not going back Malaysia for good).

And he on the other hand, tells me indirectly not to go for it cause "I am HIGHLY AGAINST getting another shift leader. ME, xxx , xxx and xxx does everything already. Others are shift leaders only by name". (So he's saying he's one of the best out there that does a lot of stuff for my shop)

LOOK. There are a few reasons why a boss would want new shift leaders.
1) Current shift leaders suck balls.
2) She has plans of opening another branch (she told me) and want the current shift leaders to train future shift leaders
3) She just likes us (the chosen ones) and would want to pay us more!


WorsT ever was that, he was my friend first before we worked together !! ZZzzz How un-supportive IS THAT !?

SIGH.

Work today is not bad. Loads of drama today i.e. someone dine and dashed , someone tried stealing my shop's chair (saying that he needed a chair for his living room, fml) , AND I HAD TO CLEAN SOMEONE'S PERIOD STAINS OFF THE CHAIR. FML X INFINITY

GEEZ. WEAR YOUR PAD PROPERLY, ITS DISGUSTING!

I MEAN I AM SURE YOU CAN FEEL "IT LEAKING" WHEN YOU SIT!!!

Like say each time I feel something down there, I'll jump on my feet and go to the nearest toilet to check my down there out. There's a toilet in my shop , you know. Sheesh.

After a dramatic day at work....come back ask for opinions but clearly, I asked the wrong person- aka the braggart. Phuck sian. 

Tiringgg!!

Reached home at 2am yesterday, slept for 12 hours, wake up and got ready for work.

Worked today, working tomorrow and also the next day.

Wah kao, life is so tiring and mundane. Life in Melbourne especially.

Work, sleep, eat, stone.

So damn tired !!!

But I just ate supper, so not going to sleep just yet.

Got loads of photos to upload, but wait till I am free and not tired first !

Okay that's all.

Just bombed AUD50 on 600 piece/ 300 pairs of double eyelid sticker on EBAY because those sold in SASA sucks balls. Paid RM20 for 240 piece / 120 pairs but can't be used AT ALL cause its not cut properly. Will never buy cheap double eyelid stickers ever again !!! A  WASTE OF MONEY

I got the strength of Hercules.

Just yesterday only, I broke a martini glass, just by touching it SOFTLY (in my dictionary) against the metal cupboard. It BROKE. The first glass I broke after working for 1 month !! 

Then today, don't know how I did it but I broke the letter "M" of Eddie's laptop keyboard : 

 Seriously, I wasn't even using his laptop. I was using mine, that was in front of his.

When I lifted my laptop , that letter 'M' just come out like that ! MY INITIAL SOME MORE.

Makes me wonder if my apartment is really.....hxxxxted! Damn scary lor. Second time something weird happened.

So today, work at night again. Camwhored. NOTICED MY EYESSSSSSS!??!! hehehe

Can see? The fine line above my eyes (especially the picture above, right side). Both are equal, dont know why it doesn't look like they are, in pictures.

Haha. Little things like this makes me happy. I am sooo easy to please. But my eyes are indeed bigger IRL than in here.

Even at work today, someone said I look different ! But he was saying that it's cause I didn't bobby-pin my fringe up. Cheh.

Something to rant about. 

Seriously, some customers are damn @3$#%@!$#%#*.

Please use some brains.

Shop = busy, understaffed and  lack skilled workers.

BE UNDERSTANDING.

You're seriously asking for a spit in your food.

Customer => acting like a freaking spoilt brat, putting his arms high up each time I look up when I am busy with something. And I already told him to WAIT. So he kinda make me reluctant to look up!

Then when I gave up, I walk towards that fugly customer, and wait RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. (Was updating my WaiterPad, hence have to wait about 2-3 minutes, but that fucked up fugly guy can't even wait for that short period of time. If he's hot, its a different story, but he's NOT, and like totally opposite)

So a string of orders just came up, and cause I can't record any of them, obviously, I have to call him to wait right?

Then he said ," Still not ready yet?"
Me, " NO"
Him to 5 other people on the same table " SHE'S STILL NOT READY YET" in a sarcastic/irritated and irritating and rude tone.

C'mon man, you want me to screw your orders by just listening to you and depend on my memory that have a high probability of mixing up with other table's orders, or just wait for TWO MINUTES and I get EVERYTHING RIGHT. Sheesh kebab !

I am proud to say that I have NEVER made any wrong order (apart from that one time on my first day).

This feeling sucks.

Ever worked your ass off but was under appreciated?
Paid a whole fuck load of attention to details, but it was overlooked?
Walked an extra "mile", did what's best for the situation, but was turned a blind eye upon.
Did everything right, but it's just never good enough.
Outperformed, but kicked aside.

You suck.

It's your loss.

Hope everything will be good at your end when I am gone.

Birthdays and PAIN(T) BALL "FUN" !! =(

Celebrated a friend's birthday yesterday !!! The following pictures are SOME photos of food taken..those nice ones lor, cause forgot to take most of the other food pictures. But they are really nice! 

The restaurant's name is called "Wooden Spoon" I think. 

Agedashi tofu ! Me and another friend shared this dish. Yumz

Okonomiyaki (not sure of the spelling) !! Potato thing that tasted abit like takoyaki.

The above picture is tomato curry dish.It's quite tasty, but just not that happy with those "chickens swimming in the sauce". Soooo stingy of the restaurant!

Next is my UDON dish. Damn springy the udon!!!! yum !! (very few chicken bits also) :

The order of the photo is opposite. This :

is before I mess the dish up. Love udon noodles. 

Then comes desert :

Green tea latte. 

Sesame ice cream and soya milk beancurd!

The end.

Sunday morning wake up early go dig my own grave play paintball !

Stupid angmohs, bloody hell racist, never obey rules, got shot, suppose to go back to starting line, but they continue shooting us, even when we surrender !!!!

It's like we're their punching bags only!

Look what I got myself into :

Beautiful 3 tone tumour-like blue black. The biggest injury. Got shot 4 times in my leg, but this one is the worst!

So super tired !! Suppose to play about 8 games, but only finished 4. Cause cannot stand those angmohs. Cheaters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tired face from webcam.

My wound and I. 

Sexy legs I have! HAHAHA!

Yeay!

Hah, I've changed my blog URL !

May the creepy stalker who reads my blog get cut out completely from my blog!

Or if you 'follow' my blog as anonymous, STOP READING!!!! I don't want you to know anything about me.

I mean I don't mind sharing my "knowledge"/daily ramblings/ bitching session over here with the rest of the world, just not this guy!!!

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!

Thank GOD you're stuck in Malaysia.

I feel damn dumb now, should've known I can change my url =/

Hatred 101

This is the #2302830918301930 post I am writing about how much I hate a particular person.

If he is just someone random, we would've lost contact a long time ago. Walking along the streets, pretended we never know each other...aw, such idealistic DREAMS, if only they can be some sort of reality.

But can't. He's related to my boyfriend. Unless we break up, it's going to be a hard time to not see each other. Sigh. Why is he so problematic, with severe case of attitude problem.

Always promoting himself, pretending to be a nice person, but deep down he's a self centered bastard who cares about nothing but his own welfare.

Now I understand why his previous house mate left suddenly. I should have/ could have done the same thing.

He has not even fully moved in into his girlfriend's place, but guess what? There are complaints about him already!! WOOO!!!!! I am not surprised ^^

Through his malicious, cunning acts, he, ever ready, kicked someone out of a student organisation , taking over the role of that person he kicked out, without mercy and second chances. He thought by taking over the role, he's someone better. But guess what? People around him got to know him better instead, and guess his true colours shown - he's purely incompetent and was talked a lot behind his back. HAHAHAHAHA.

How long can you hide ? You like to make people believe you're a nice person, but SORRY, I've had enough.

Yes, you gave your furniture to me and your brother, saying " I gave you all a little thought by letting you have the furnitures while I am still staying here."

Well, knowing you, what you meant exactly is "Take it now, because I've got no need for them when I move out"

Why ? You message me early this morning, asking me if I needed the bed, because you don't need it, and you don't know what to do with it.

NICE MUCH? tuh PUI *with phelgm* !

OH OH, another one.

"Maybe make a little effort into saving my dad's money by seeing if there's any possibility of reusing the internet"

He signed an internet contract for 1.5 years. He told me he would check if the contract expires, I told him at that time I already got plans with another service provider, but I can cancel it if he tells me within 1 week.

As usual, he never. Then today bug me and ask me if I needed the internet 1 month later.

??? Hello ! I need the internet you know, the world doesn't wait for you.

So I told him I am already with another service provider.

He got all angry and said he was busy with exams so he can't make a phonecall to tell them to transfer the internet ownership. WOOooo. I don't think people study even 12 hours a day ? He call me to make a little effort, but did he? I am sure if he can make a phone call to his girlfriend or whoever at least once a week, why not this internet service provider?

Plus, exams are no excuse. I packed the stuff, moved, did inspection at all the random-est places in Melbourne, went to agent's office at Bridge Road damn many times, DURING MY EXAM PERIOD. Even right before my exams in Geelong, I was helping the movers to move stuffs into the truck in Melbourne CITY, to save money.

(Exam was at 6pm. From 12pm - 3pm I was busy with the movers, on that day itself !! furthermore 2 days after that, I have TWO PAPERS. Beat that!!)

And he can't freaking make a phone call to transfer? He called me to call the service provider INSTEAD.

So...he wants me to continue his contract, and wants me to call the company to connect the contract to my new place...its like u ask people for a favour (continue the internet service) but chuck everything for them to do it (you call the company, tell them you want to take over my contract). Make sense? WTF lor.

Yah, to prove his hypocritical side :

"make a little effort to save my dad's money"

WELLLWELLLL WELLLL.

Little did he know that I know he asked for an expensive handphone from his parents. Apart from that, he bought a RM6k laptop.

Save his dad's moneh much?

Well I am all into saving my parent's money too you know. As far as I remember, I bought the cheapest laptop from an okay brand in the market about two years ago. RM2.5K . Barely AUD1K. You went and bought a AUD2.5K laptop just recently. Laptops are getting cheaper, and why is your laptop so damn expensive?

That's just the cost price. I am sure there are insurance. Plus, the final few days before I left Verve for good, you just received your laptop bag from the mail. I signed it.

I am sure laptop comes with a laptop bag right, why want to be fancy and bought another laptop case if you want to save your parents' money?

I am writing this straight forwardly, and yes I do hate him, but I don't think I am bias with my judgement, they all have proves. Identity of people who bitched about him is not disclosed because I don't want to drag people into this.

I am just HORRIBLY DISGUSTED with this kind of people.

Want to bluff, learn how to bluff better.

Want to pretend, act till the end.

Want to preach, make sure you don't practice them yourself.

I wonder what you did in your past life, till you deserve such a good girlfriend this life. I like his girlfriend, and I honestly think she deserves better.

Enough said.

PS: DELETING SOMEONE FROM FACEBOOK HAS NEVER FELT SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!

Comparison.

Why do people compare?

Why people compare you with another?

Does it really matter if she's prettier or I am hotter?

Or personality wise, or level of smartness?

I am sure as we grow, each individual will learn to overcome their cons and flaunt their pro's.

I HATE IT when people compare me and another person. Cause don't. It'll provoke me.

To me, I am the most perfect being God and my parents has created.

I love the way I look, think, and react.

So Don't BOTHER.

I am prettiest, smartest and most attractive to me. I am the least flawed person to me. I am my parents' pride. NOT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT ANYONE ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's my eyes. The way I do things soothes myself.

Don't like it, look elsewhere then, why bother with "Ifs" and make comparisons.

"Oh My God"

Few days ago, whilst walking down from Corner of Collins and Swanston Street down towards Melbourne Central, I shouted :

"OH MY GOD"

and was about to continue with my sentence, some cranky old man scolded me LOUDLY on the streets :

"Don't use God's name in vain, you stupid girl !"

Come on, that time I was lost with my friend, Russell, and when I see a familiar road, I got excited, and it naturally came out.

And I don't think saying "Oh My God" is using God's name in vain.

At times when humans are feeling either extremely excited, angry, thankful , scared...etc only did they/we/I use the term 'God' like this.

Isn't this kind of like remembering God, because we remember God at times where we feel extreme emotions? I know everytime when I say OHMYGOD, my eyes opened so big like as if they were about to pop.

Yeah I know some people are overusing it in every sentence they made, like

'ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod'

All in one breath. That's why they are called bimbos, dammit.

haihz and religions in general, serve to give humans hope, when we pray, and make us a better person.

PLUS we all pray different Gods, what made him so sure that my God think I am using the term "God" in vain? Maybe my God like it?

zzzzZZZzzz

As long as we're all good people, bringing kindness to the world, that's what any God cares the most.

No push.

Second day since my assignment is due. I still find no push to do it.

Yes I have all the time in the world to watch Youtube, eBay , and also update my blog but those are leisure stuff. They make me happy, and carefree.

Once I get into my serious mode with my assignment, my mind gets spinning with so many other "serious" things :

1) Constantly looking for apartments to move it.

- It has to be now, cause we need an apartment that's available by early June so that Eddie and I can move together. He's leaving on June 17th, and I have to be done with moving by early June cause my exams are near, and if I were to move after Eddie goes home....I seriously don't know how the FUCK I am going to manage things alone.

Tonnes of washing, packing, moving, applying to move in/out from the management (stupid apartment rule), unpacking....and only Eddie and I know our things best.

2) Money issue for next semester in the long-run.

-Before you start pointing your index finger at my shopping spree, the money I spent now.. it is MOST PROBABLY a one off thing, or once in a while thing, AND its something that I can live without spending on them.

-Once I move into my new apartment, I'll be tied with Heavy Fixed Cost. Weekly AUD 320-400 a week for a confirmed 2 months. And after that, depends on how Eddie perform on his presentation tomorrow that will determine if he gets his internship job in Australia or not.

I HATE uncertainties.

3) Peer Pressure for some club stuff

- 4-5th time I am being approached !! I wish I can tell them one of the main reasons why I am not interested.

-I CAN'T possibly PR for people I don't like, at all. Just for that particular person...

-As much as I would like to join, I need to work next semester to reduce my Heavy Fixed Cost of my parents.

- I want a more free final semester please..

- I am even thinking of passing down from my own club at my own university, how much more join yours?

-I am not made out of metals, screws and everlasting batteries.

My course is assignment based, boring report based...even club stuffs are all writing of report. I am actually burnt out from writing things that I have to be formal with ! Thats why I am so..."shouting" from my blog here.

Even if you see OUT THERE IN MELBOURNE STREETS, I am happy especially for moments where I suddenly forget this heavy weight on my shoulders, but when I think of them again, I just don't enjoy fully anymore.

4) I don't feel at ease in the current place I am staying.

Somehow these few days before and when my assignment and even after it's due, the whole apartment is damn noisy.

The idiot brought a bunch of friends home and play dice aka put-dice-in-the-cup-and-shake-like-fuck, when numbers are shown, losers moans, winners screams.

Apart from that, don't know why the eyesore is always at home recently. WHY? When I do work in the living room, kept talking to me when I am reading through my notes to freaking get started on my assignments. I did not reply to his lame questions also, he kept asking. talkingtalkingtalking.please GET THE HINT!!

Then yeahla, Sigh, unluckily Eddie's presentation is due on Monday. He has been practising on top of his lungs. Can't stop him from practising cause his whole next semester is dependant on it, but yet can't do work with the noise...

5) P suppose to come, had signs of it coming, but suddenly it stopped. Guess stress paused the process.

hating my life at this point right now.

So looking forward to moving to my new place, with hopefully peace and quiet..

A little too proud.

It is wrong, to entirely think that you are superbly beautiful and that people around you are shrek-lookalikes.

Just cause you are being flirted at, looked at, or even people talk to you, doesn't solely mean that they want you, and they want you bad. Doesn't mean that they yearn you, and would die to get you. Nor does it mean that you are the dream everyone wants to dream.

How sure are you that people are not calling you "easy" behind-the-scenes?

Girls didn't want to mix with you because they think you're a threat? I think otherwise, and its probably your pride, with too much confidence, that shunned them away.

I have seen a lot of way better looking girls with loads of girlfriends. Girls admire them instead of thinking of them as threats.

It is already proven (according to this book my dad call me to read), that it is SLIGHTLY easier for good looking people to attract more friends..not to chase them away.

Why didn't that apply to you?

Its not that I am saying you're ugly, but some humility would make you a more beautiful person.

Stuffs that malicious people come out with nowadays ...

I was clearing my email because I have difficulties looking for files I sent to myself, and also from other people. No thanks to major email spammer , Facebook.

Almost 6k emails and i think 5k are from Facebook, Friendster and Twitter.

While clearing , I saw this email from ' GMAIL ' :

Click to read!

Thank god I missed the email and 11 days later, I am still using my email just fine.

So beware of these kinda emails.

Always always always keep in mind that all service provider will NEVER ask for your Account details, especially password.

If they are working for the company, they should be able to get through to our personal details, and work on from there.

P.S : If you did reply to this email OUT OF FEAR that your email will be deleted, just quickly change your password now.

Another dangerous sighting of Mat Rempits.

Today, Eddie came to pick me up, and so we went Pavilion. One of the main reasons was to see my dad, to ask about his lump. Haih, need to do surgery. Worried for him.

Then after seeing my dad, went shopping. I spent only RM5 ONLY today, and its for parking. hehe.

After shopping, I pooped in Pavilion's toilet. Hate using public toilets..!! So embarrassing that I had to poopoo right before the cleaner wash the toilets and they were waiting PLUS BITCHING!

I am sure it's about me because I heard them laugh and something about "what's taking that girl so long?". I need half an hour one ler :(( FML!!!

Then come yummy desert/ tea time~

Japanese deserts at MOF, Pavilion.
Yummie. but hate the red bean paste beneath that soft creamy ice-cream.
Super sweet Hot Green Tea + Cream + Gnuuchi? that few piece of flour looking coated thingy (the Gnuuchi tasted quite nice)

But the drink is yucky. It's like sweet as you drink it..but it leaves a really bitter aftertaste.

Then Eddie dear bought me :
^^ a piece of white bread handphone hanger. It seriously smelt like food (vanilla smell). RM5.90~

The end. Thats the only thing I got the whole day. No mood to shop at all.

About the Mat Rempits sighting...

Today while using the Kerinchi Link, right before the Plaza A tol, there was a group of Mat Rempits all surrounding this injured guy. When I saw the injured guy, I thought he is one of the Mat Rempits that dropped off his motorcycle or something while doing all the dangerous stunts on the motorbike.

Until some cars tried to stop to help I think, or tried to be nosy ... there's this Mat Rempit that "shoo" all the cars away, calling them NOT TO STOP, waving his hands to call us to go away.

Then I realised...that injured guy was beaten up! His head was bloodied. He was shaking, almost unconscious...lying on the ground. There are about 5-10 of them surrounding him holding their helmets on one hand! They probably whacked him with the helmets.

Sigh. This is what I assumed that happened by glancing for 5seconds. I don't know if I should call the police or not at that point of time...but I really think I should have right now. I was shocked. The Mat Rempits look fierced and full of forced. But still, it involved an injured guy being all beaten up! Wonder if he is still alive now :( and hoping someone that passed through saw that fight and called the police (that time got quite a few cars).

What an unsafe country.