Updates and good news :)

Been spending weeks, mending my CV, writing down my cover letter, searching for potential jobs, preparing for interview and finally ... I am hired !!! :D

Officially starting work on the 26 of March.

Interview sucked, but what to do, I promised to be an extremely hard worker , fast learner and a go-getter. lol.

I swear I am not joking. I didn't do very well during the interview, never gave good interviews before, even though the current job is my 7th job, but 8th role. LOL.

Sadly, I didn't get the role I wanted, or should I say, better at. Public Relations is my forte, but because I procrastinated a lot little, I had missed the opportunity by merely 2 weeks! They just hired someone new before they saw my CV T.T

So I am back with Pavilion, the place I interned before 2 years ago. Instead of doing Public Relations, I will be under Leasing.

Heard its helluva paper work, but I am all in for new challenges yo !!!  Challenges and new environment excites me, don't know why. I love learning new things. Just that I really needa improve on all my languages and how to self promote myself. I think I have high EQ.

Academic wise...probably very average. But please, don't ask me about world news and politics. They bore me. Politics , football and maths bore the s#$@ outta me.

Anyways..my English isn't exactly A grade. BM is half arsed (forgot most when I went to Aus for good), and only know conversational Mandarin and Hokkien. Probably can read more than I write, but still, I feel like a jack of all trades but a master of NONE.

I've started working since 15, done Food &Beverages, Public Relations, Marketing, illegal seller (sold fire crackers and spray paints/ribbon when I was young) , Nursing (for my dad) and now....something totally new...Leasing.

Adventures awaits =] I am officially(soon) an OL (office lady) ahahaha. I love wearing office wear.


Owh... I hate high heels :( I have giant blisters all over my feet now


Severely injured feet...(stole this picture from my own Twitter)

And..got a lot of stares. I know, I am tall and still wear high heels ! Probably looked around 175cm. hahaha. But it makes me look slim ! For the first time I  look at reflections and thought I don't look fat.

Actually, I've lost a couple of weight since I came back to Malaysia. 3-4kgs away from being my "skinny" stage!!! Lost about 3kgs since I came back. Lost about 7 kgs in total since May last year. Hahaha, dam slow right, but I am hoping to lose weight slowly, so that it doesn't come back fast !

I don't know why people say I'll put on weight in Malaysia, with scrumptious food everywhere. They're outside food, true, very fatty, but I have an extremely weak stomach. Been falling sick pretty often...from food poisonings, allergy reactions, heck, even caffeine overdose (from cheap coffees bought from bubble tea shops) can give me panic attacks + extremely high heart rate (which actually creates this "exercise" effect , which tricks your body into thinking its exercising) .

Some which are pretty serious. Had a growth on my neck just last week which THANKFULLY disappeared after a week. I almost fainted while driving alone once, can't stand up immediately or else my vision will be damn blurry, I will feel very giddy and there will be hot flushes on my face.

Agh, will take care soon. Should really stop myself from eating expired food and outside food. I actually miss my own cooking. They're extremely healthy, doesn't leave oil residue in my mouth. unlike the typical chinese cooking at home. They taste natural. Not seasoned. Haihzzzz.

Can't cook at home right now, cause my aunt is the house chef, will be very disrespectful to her. Her food is delicious, just that I feel like I've eaten 1000calories per meal. Oily, porky fatty, fried + thick yummy dark sauce or white starchy sauce. Rich in flavour.

I like bland food. Simple to prepare/cook. I usually stir fry veggies or fish, and put minimal salt , pepper , lemon. Or boil everything with some chinese herbs, very minimal seasonings. My mom has been nagging .. saying I want to learn how to cook our family style cooking, but don't want to see how my aunt cook lunch and dinner.

They are food that I USED to fancy lei :( I do enjoy cooking random stuffs, following recipes, and creating dishes but been so sick so often lately, Eddie grew fatter...and with many people suddenly dying....cancer feels like this disease that is waiting to strike anyone...my relatives all who grew up eating my grandmother's cooking , and now my aunt's(my aunt learn from my grandma) cooking, a lot of them have high cholesterol, diabetes, high blood pressure... means it has got to do with the food we eat. Not just genes. Do you all know, if you were to get a hereditary disease or something all your family members have, say obesity...the chances of you getting is 30% from genetics but 70% from  lifestyle...So, take care of your health !!!


A lot of text, I know...I kinda needa find my camera charger. Ran out of battery and can't camwhore !!! I have a lot of pictures in my handphone though. haha. :D

Okay thats all. Will update soon. Hopefully the next post will be filled with camwhore pictures.

Just randomly writing things that's in my head. I only slept 2 hours today and I had an interview + blisters on my feet. No thanks to 2 big cups of caffeinated drinks yesterday.

Wow.

I have just attended a friend's 60th birthday party.

Weird right? For someone who's slightly over 1/3 of their age to be friends with people around that age group.

How I met them? Through friend's parents, and some are through events, when I wrote some news article. They are reporters I know , and they are around THAT age.

Honestly, I prefer mixing with old people. It's like they are so tired of being mean (if they ever are) or judge mental. Old people are extremely nice people !!! You know how old people or parents, when they reach a certain age and then they mellow? I mix well with that group..

And the grand birthday party I attended just now, was one of the BEST I've been.

Pictures soon...when I am not lazy to take my memory card outta my camera. haha.

Just came back.

AND OH,
I spent last few days SPRING CLEANING my apartment (and it's beautiful spring now in Melbourne :D)  , and my gosh, can't believe I've kept SO MUCH JUNK!!! My living room in Melbourne is really small, and to be able to (find stuff to) get rid of 7 garbage bag size + 2 big boxes of rubbish ...I went speechless.

Anyway, it looks a lot emptier now...but still need at least a week before the whole apartment is open to public. lol. Bedroom to clear this coming week. Donating all the clothes that I don't want anymore :)

Halloween.

Celebrated Halloween. promptly on 31st October with other friends who's families are back in Malaysia.

Without a large range of make ups and no costumes....I've decided to draw a 3rd eye on my forehead -____-

Super minimal effort (only need black eyeliner and white eyeliner), but well, I got a lot of stares on the streets of Melbourne. hahaha.

Super shy and was hiding beside Eddie the whole time, and camwhore:

Seriously people here, they don't care if its obvious that they are staring until I give them a look back (in the tram).


So I've brought my pasta :))

The place was nicely decorated !! Everything was handmade :

Actually, I took WAY more photos than was published here and on Facebook, but have to filter properly because Eddie wasn't the only guy who dressed up as a girl (and the other guy minded that his photo will be published on the internet) :

 (I look weird here because I was trying to open my eyes to the biggest it can, and it looks weird!)

Lesbians for the night yo !!!

"Snakes & Ladders Adult Version - with truth/dare, drink 1 shot, drink double shot & make a friend drink"

It was a fun night. Drank till I got horribly drunk and wasted the following two days in bed. I can't even stand for more than 5minutes or I will faint...and I had all symptoms of food poisoning -_- Fucking hate hangover, and will never drink till that extend EVER!!!

But HEHEHE, love it when friends and I are drunk, cause most of the time, its when secrets no longer stay as secrets.

All the time in the world to party.

Its so relaxing being unemployed ! Sleep and wake up whenever I want, and do whatever I want, only thing is no $$ coming in. But lucky Eddie The Kind is super willing to subsidize and pay for many things ^^ HEHEHEH. Gotta love generous BF.

Haven't felt this relaxed and worry-free for a very very very long time. I am very worried about my weight as I haven't been exercising for a very long time, but argh, will deal with that when I feel like it.

So the other day went out with friends to celebrate another friend's birthday. Had guilty pizza :

 Authentic italian pizza though, not as sinful as Dominoes/Pizza Hut etc.

 Cute Miffy Frames!!

Love this shot. How often you see pictures getting taken at this angle :D

After that head to someone's house, to eat cake !!!

Well, I think I am the least civilized person. I suggested to dig in the cake, than to cut it nicely into slices. HEH. (A lot of people say that I am being such a typical Malaysian, but this is one of the very rare times I dig in a cake leh !!! My dad is a clean freak, and will NEVER allow people's saliva's to touch, thats why I am dying for this opportunity! Infact I don't recall of any memories of me digging in a cake -_-)

Then decided to webcam our friend from Singapore =D

She took a snapshot of all of us :

 Darn I regret being kiasu and stand/kneel right infront. My face = XL size, and horrible camera pixelates my face, e x p a n d i n g it further.

Okie The End.

FML :):)

Gone were the days where FML is used to describe a bad day or a bad occurrence. 

I think I kinda overused FML until my friend who just came back from US, bought me :

And told me this shirt reminds him of ME! hehehe

I really love this shirt. The cut is absolutely perfect.

I am quite tall, at 168.5cm, its really hard to find t-shirts that fits my body perfectly. A lot of shirts I bought, I just wear them even though they are rather short for my body.

And guess what? After I tried on this shirt, I Googled the brand, and immediately bombed AUD150 worth of shirt on this brand - David & Goliath Tees.

It's really comfy too!!! :):)

:) Happy

It has been a really long long longgggggggggggg time since I won something. And it is best when you least expect it.

Today, is my club's 2nd Year Anniversary celebration. I went there to show some support, without expecting anything in return.

Travelled all the way there, took me an hour...I was late (AS USUAL)...and ate delicious food.

Then came the lucky draw part, and the number of my ticket was called... 017

HEH, super happy. Won an iPod shuffle just like that.  

So I've just uploaded loads of photos :

Hate the new facebook, but I really like the collage of pictures (of my face) up there. Nicely put together :p

♥ it. 

1 year closer to deathbed..

What is there to celebrate? 

I always find myself asking that.

Time is flying so quickly that I find it pointless celebrating birthdays, in fact..I don't like crowds anymore. I only like sharing this special date with my family members, bf and maybe small comfort crowd. To feel the undivided love they have for me on my "special" day - its enough. No need for presents, just the essentials ; food ( dinner, cake, etc).

I've had parties whereby almost 30people came over. Great big party, my apartment can barely fit everyone, food aplenty, games were wild.. but

Honestly?

It was tiring =( It felt more like having to entertain than be entertained. Even surprise parties....all I felt was obligation to talk to everyone, cause truly, I appreciate their thoughtfulness..but its just me.I am quite on the quiet side I guess. I can force myself to be all friendly and loud,but at the end of the day, I'd be exhausted mentally.

But I don't mind attending functions,as long as I am not the one organising ^^ & have to talk to everyone. 


Birthday... 1  year has passed. I feel more depressed than happy, like really.

Ever since understanding the meaning of death, the loss suffered, the pains that I went through, I wish time will just go  >>>>>slow<<<<<.

Also just had a taste of some bad news right before my birthday. Less of a reason to celebrate. That horrible,horrible news tied down my finances, thus ALSO deterring me from "going all out" on my birthday. On top of that, my return flight to Melbourne was cancelled. A whole lot of money is being wasted to buy new last minute tickets..

I came to Melbourne discreetly, not letting many people know, only a handful, and spend 2 good days alone and with Eddie. Was alone most of the time though, spending a little on food I've missed in Melbourne while giving a few working friends surprise visits to their bakery, cafe...etc.

In a dilemma. I miss my family very much and have an option to go back home for good within 2 months, or waste another 6 months here. Go back home, start on career, & leave a 4 year relationship or stay another 6 months, go back for good & also have a risk of losing a 4 year relationship.

I know the best answer to this, but 4 years to forget, will be like healing from a slit to the throat; death-like and probably need a miracle to recover.

Guys are aplenty. I know. I've dated a few, got together with a few...its hard to find one that I am comfortable with.

Yesterday while playing card games with my friends, seeing my guy friends attacking Eddie, bruising his ego, calling him ball-less for giving me the power to make decisions for him...and him taking it like that, and was not affected at all,my heart felt as if it has liquidfy/melted.

( quite a nice game!! Monopoly card game)

How to find a guy who loves me this much? Who looks out for me, who constantly cares, who ticks out the list of a good boyfriend (except being neat and tidy).

I am not really a good girlfriend material (maybe like Distinction level, not HD - ahaha ^^ ), because my temper is...indescribable.I am literally like a walking time bomb. Just yesterday, I waited 20 minutes for him to come home from work so that we can go out together, around town collecting my birthday freebies...the first stop was to Boost. The queue was long, and he waited with me for 5minutes, and said he can't wait in line with me cause he's too hungry.

I scolded him saying "I WAITED 20MINUTES FOR YOU, AND YOU WAIT 5MINUTES ONLY YOU MAKE NOISE, DON'T HAVE TO WAIT WITH ME LA". I stormed off and went to calm down, while he go buy his "lunch".

After I got my freebies alone,came back home...continued being pissed at him...and he called me to open the fridge. Inside were my favourite cakes and macaroons from my favourite shop. He explained that he couldn't wait with me cause he was worried the shop would close.

Sigh
All good things come to an end?

yumzzzz.

haha stupid picture of him lazing behind me,watching shows.

Sigh, tough decisions. 

Sydney Day 1

Heh can't stand my angry rants in previous post, got to update ASAP! 

Planned a trip with Eddie to go Sydney on 20th June 2011, it was funnz.

Booked his flight, he was due to arrive at 4.30pm. As for me, I took the bus from Canberra down to Sydney at 12.30pm . I reached an hour  earlier than Eddie.

I checked in the hotel alone, but didn't dare to stay in hotel room to wait for him for an hour. ahahaha! So damn old already but I am still afraid of being alone in hotels + using their toilet alone!

So decided to pop by Meet Fresh - another version of Snowflake (from Malaysia) 

But by the time I found the place, Eddie reach already, so gotta U-turn back to hotel before buying anything!!! Somemore the queue damn long, and I got cut -_-

Lesson of the story - Don't ever trust Google Map completely. They are actually not accurate at all !!

So went to meet up with him, rest awhile then went to Chat Thai for dinner. Famous must-go Thai restaurant in Sydney :

Notable dishes we ordered :

 Boneless chicken wings!! Yums.

SUKI - fried glass noodle.  Super niceeeeee, they have kangkung in it. I misssss kangkung so much.

We also ordered the usual green curry, nah, don't like it.  The reason I came back Chat Thai is because I miss their fried chinese donuts (yao char kuai / you diao)  with Pandan sauce VERY MUCH, but they said its only available at 9pm!! We had an early dinner at about 6pm!

Total damage : $45. (including tips Eddie gave them *pissy - we're so broke already he's still giving money out )

So dragged Eddie to that Meet Fresh /Snowflake-like place for desserts instead :

They also have this beeper thing to tell you your dessert's ready.

Reasonable price, I guess?! Aud5.50 per bowl.

Not bad at all !! I love Eddie's choice , the top bowl, it's like jelly-water. Very goo-ey. Mine was nice, except that the hyped taroballs doesn't really taste like taro. In fact it taste like nothing (bland) -_-.

After eating hide in hotel room again :

Then we took a stroll around city, bought mineral water for 3 days' consumption from Safeway :

Then it's 9pm sharp, went back to Chat Thai. The kitchen that's near the entrance = the place where they cook/prepare all their snacks and desserts !

 Post this picture cause got pretty girl working  there! ahahaha!!

 mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!

Was feeling super greedy, and bought both the fried stuff. HEH.  

The big balls thingy got fish ball inside. Quite disappointed though, the quality deteriorated like mad (especially the Pandan sauce, taste super artificial unlike last time)

Eat liao then sleepppppppp zZZzzz. This-is-why-Im-phat.

That's the end of day 1 @ Sydney ! 

Sydney fun.

As I am writing this, I am actually in a cyber cafe in Melbourne. Just arrived yesterday, internet WAS fine, until today - my service provider SUSPENDED my internet line!!! No thanks to Eddie who forgot to pay the bills for 2 months!!! Why must it happen at this time ah?

So Eddie brought me to his cyber cafe on his expense for HIS mistake !! ^^ He bought me a lemon tart and apple pastry on the way cause I am used to over eating ( at Sydney) FML!!!

There are soooo many pictures I want to upload, its in Eddie's laptop, but no internet to upload.

Sydney was fun. Loved every minute of the trip. Ate a lot, spent time with bf, met up with friends I haven't seen for quite sometime...it was a trip that I dreamed of!!!

Sleep until happy, spend until broke, eat until SICK (go back hotel room with bad headache, fever and nausea for 3 nights!)!! Like seriously.

Maybe because I was eating so healthy back then for almost 2 months, almost no processed and tasty food..but once I went Sydney, 'stomach hell' broke loose. Ate everything in sight. Visited the same dessert shop 3 days in a row!!!

Well the overeating hasn't stop in Melbourne :(

Ahhhh next Monday going to go back Canberra. OMGosh, I love city lifeeeeeeeeeeee, not looking forward to going back dead-land Canberra !!! But sigh, it's unhealthy to keep living in land of yummy-unhealthy food + distractions.

Ohhhh welllll~~~

Muffin top ! :(

Didn't go to the gym yesterday and today...worse part is that, I felt chubbier already.

Been working a lot instead, and my body was extremely exhausted.

So was in the mood to watch Biggest Loser Australia 2011 today..the concept this season is really interesting. The personal trainers have to spend the first week, living in the house of the participants (ie obese people), eating what they eat, and not exercising at all.

It was a shocker...when they weigh themselves after 1 week.

All the personal trainers gained at least 5kgs A WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy #$@%$#%# !!!

I thought the more muscles you have, the higher your metabolism...some more the personal trainers didn't really eat exactly what the obese people eat..they puked it out..so how?! How did they gain 5kgs in A WEEK!

I don't want to exercise my life away (its really tiring), I want to eat food without counting the calories , so hard to enjoy life ! Either you eat happily and look really sad , or eat like a bird and look good.

Furthermore, in 3 weeks time, I'll be taking 1 week off gym , going for holidays (Sydney and Melbourne)...eating ....not really moving...I don't want to gain all the excess fats I've lost!!!

How to get the best of both worlds? :'(

But tomorrow I am going to the gym for hoursssss , to make up for lazy yesterday and today.

Oh oh, hehehe,

the pants I wore up there..

2 months ago when I was back in Melbourne...I can't even button that jeans pants! It was sooooo freaking tight, even breathing out all the air from my body + sucking the tummy, I just can't button it.

So I brought that pants over to Canberra, I tried it today, and woohoo, I can wear them again! =D Just that I have a slight.."muffin top" . hahahaha. 

Never mind, soon it'll be hanging off my butt like the picture up there! Just wait! 

Going to buy weighing machine soon! Panda and I have been in denial...and didn't dare to weigh ourselves, hence no weighing machine in Canberra at all ! Another 1 more month...I'll be buying it no matter what !