Bestie's graduation.

Dog gone were the days where I can sleep anytime I want. I have been having loads of trouble sleeping lately. I used to be able to survive without sleep for approximately max 30 hours. Now I can stay awake longer almost effortlessly.

Can you believe I can still suffer insomnia even though I didn't sleep for a day already?! Been surviving on an average of 5hours of sleep per day. And I am on a holiday man!! I want to sleep longer !!

So I didn't sleep and attended my bestie's graduation at another state of Victoria ,ie Geelong.  It's 1 hour train ride away from Melbourne.

Words cannot describe how excruciating it felt to not sleep for 28.5 hours already when I first meet up with friends at 10am. Its like I was extremely tired, but I just cannot get my body to sleep!!!

Met up as usual anyway but the first few minutes upon seeing new faces, I stoned all the way.

Look, my first picture of that day, and I looked at the wrong direction -_-

That picture was taken before my friend went in for her graduation. So we have like about 3hours to burn before seeing her again for more picture taking !

So her friend brought us to this place for breakfast : Cafe Go !

 The concept is pretty interesting and new. After you order your food, instead of a number,they give you a soft toy ! I really like the idea.

Very hard for the soft toy to get dirty because, once your food comes, they take the soft toy back ! So the whole time I was snapping away a lot of table, because well, not much adults bothered playing with the soft toy, and it was just sitting on the table...and it made the cafe look like it's been decorated with cutesy stuffs !

So after breakfast, went to a few places to explore for fun. Didn't take pictures lah. Busy stoning. Brain was dead !

Then its time to meet up with the new graduate for futher camwhore session. The sun was scorching hot, was squinting my eyes away , turned a few shades darker and my feet actually got sun burnt -_-

Edith has this really sweet friend who was willing to drive to and fro  Edith's place and university TWICE (because there was 7 of us, can't fit into the car), even though we insisted on taking the public transport! Must emphasize cause it has been a very long long long long long long time since a guy was willing to do that. Nowadays a lot of guys damn calculative weh!

The last time I had this treatment was when I was 18!!! Guys were very willing at that age (assuming they also just got their license and still loved to drive), plus I am older now, market value drop wtf !!!

So while waiting for him to come back, we camwhored more :

By the time we reached her house, it was almost 36 hours since I last slept. I died on the couch as soon as I entered.

Woke up and the first thing I did was the camwhore with this coke bottle :

haha (hence the slightly fluffy hair) Share a Coke with me?! Naw, you can have it all..I don't really like Coke actually. heh.

Wonderful food was then served, thanks to Edith's mom who cooked it. It's Hongkie style yo !!!

After food, played some UNO , till around 10pm, and her extremely nice friend drove all of us back to our house (and I live at least an hour away !!!zomg).

Reach home and slept around 12+am. Woke up at 8am sharp the next day. Argh, I am suppose to sleep longer to cover up for previous day but no, I didn't.

Anyway, my pressie for her :

Not my best work :( Imagine not writing for a super long time, and it feels like a very unfamiliar feeling when you start writing again! Not only that, the surface of this cardboard thing is rough !! My handwriting roundish one, the paper made it look crooked and not smooth! Ew !

Okay, end of an extremely TMI / detailed blog post + pictures.

1 year closer to deathbed..

What is there to celebrate? 

I always find myself asking that.

Time is flying so quickly that I find it pointless celebrating birthdays, in fact..I don't like crowds anymore. I only like sharing this special date with my family members, bf and maybe small comfort crowd. To feel the undivided love they have for me on my "special" day - its enough. No need for presents, just the essentials ; food ( dinner, cake, etc).

I've had parties whereby almost 30people came over. Great big party, my apartment can barely fit everyone, food aplenty, games were wild.. but

Honestly?

It was tiring =( It felt more like having to entertain than be entertained. Even surprise parties....all I felt was obligation to talk to everyone, cause truly, I appreciate their thoughtfulness..but its just me.I am quite on the quiet side I guess. I can force myself to be all friendly and loud,but at the end of the day, I'd be exhausted mentally.

But I don't mind attending functions,as long as I am not the one organising ^^ & have to talk to everyone. 


Birthday... 1  year has passed. I feel more depressed than happy, like really.

Ever since understanding the meaning of death, the loss suffered, the pains that I went through, I wish time will just go  >>>>>slow<<<<<.

Also just had a taste of some bad news right before my birthday. Less of a reason to celebrate. That horrible,horrible news tied down my finances, thus ALSO deterring me from "going all out" on my birthday. On top of that, my return flight to Melbourne was cancelled. A whole lot of money is being wasted to buy new last minute tickets..

I came to Melbourne discreetly, not letting many people know, only a handful, and spend 2 good days alone and with Eddie. Was alone most of the time though, spending a little on food I've missed in Melbourne while giving a few working friends surprise visits to their bakery, cafe...etc.

In a dilemma. I miss my family very much and have an option to go back home for good within 2 months, or waste another 6 months here. Go back home, start on career, & leave a 4 year relationship or stay another 6 months, go back for good & also have a risk of losing a 4 year relationship.

I know the best answer to this, but 4 years to forget, will be like healing from a slit to the throat; death-like and probably need a miracle to recover.

Guys are aplenty. I know. I've dated a few, got together with a few...its hard to find one that I am comfortable with.

Yesterday while playing card games with my friends, seeing my guy friends attacking Eddie, bruising his ego, calling him ball-less for giving me the power to make decisions for him...and him taking it like that, and was not affected at all,my heart felt as if it has liquidfy/melted.

( quite a nice game!! Monopoly card game)

How to find a guy who loves me this much? Who looks out for me, who constantly cares, who ticks out the list of a good boyfriend (except being neat and tidy).

I am not really a good girlfriend material (maybe like Distinction level, not HD - ahaha ^^ ), because my temper is...indescribable.I am literally like a walking time bomb. Just yesterday, I waited 20 minutes for him to come home from work so that we can go out together, around town collecting my birthday freebies...the first stop was to Boost. The queue was long, and he waited with me for 5minutes, and said he can't wait in line with me cause he's too hungry.

I scolded him saying "I WAITED 20MINUTES FOR YOU, AND YOU WAIT 5MINUTES ONLY YOU MAKE NOISE, DON'T HAVE TO WAIT WITH ME LA". I stormed off and went to calm down, while he go buy his "lunch".

After I got my freebies alone,came back home...continued being pissed at him...and he called me to open the fridge. Inside were my favourite cakes and macaroons from my favourite shop. He explained that he couldn't wait with me cause he was worried the shop would close.

Sigh
All good things come to an end?

yumzzzz.

haha stupid picture of him lazing behind me,watching shows.

Sigh, tough decisions. 

Sugar Daddy's birthday.

Who would've known...the typical surprise party worked ! 

The usual GF-and-BF-planned-to-have-just-a-simple-romantic-quiet-birthday-but-GF-went-behind-BF's-back-and-got-all-our-close-comfort-friends-to-come-surprise-birthday-boy!

Well, one thing for sure, my own bf must have thought I am a bitch of a girlfriend who won't plan anything for him, cause if he thinks I am a nice gf, he would've expected a surprise party. 

Anyhooo, it worked. He was really surprised.

Knowing that the venue we wanted to go was quite far, got chances of him changing the venue to a closer one . So I purposely doll up to make sure he doesn't change his venue. Put big flower pin on my head some more.

As predicted, he really wanted to go somewhere nearer to eat cause he had loads of work to do. 

The first sentence that come out of my mouth "Huh, I purposely put make up and dress nicely, you want to go to XXXX and eat? Don't want la."

Woohoo, things then went according to planned.

Pictures of nice friends who made this happen  =]

 Pretty Pat.

 Nude face Panda

 Z girls

 US

Then I made him take picture with everyone. The next few are the funny ones (lazy to upload all)! =))

 The guy who flew from Malaysia to line up for iPad 2 in Melbourne (inside joke), blowing kisses to the bf.

 Eddie, the steak.

 Raped.

❤♥ღ♥ BFFS♥ღ♥❤

Then obviously, after the surprise appearance by friends, confirm got cake one what, right? The birthday boy surprised LAGI (again) !

 Lindt chocolate cake, burnt a big fat hole in my pocket.

Then a nice friend brought a present for Eddie, but it felt more like a gift for me :

 STORY IN A CUP - FROYO !

It's really nice.

Total damage : $500

Come back, tired and camwhored on my webcam.

with fake lash.

without fake lash

With fake lash nicer right? Eddie thought otherwise (he doesn't like me with make up, and was overjoyed when I announced that I am allergic to make up wtf), and said today was more of my birthday than his. @$$%^$%&!

Time to suffer swollen eyes for the next few days :(

Oh oh oh oh oh my G!!!

My cousin cannot upload pictures onto her blog because she never resize her picture, hence clogging her blogger picture space.

Whereas for ME, I lost my camera charger!!! My camera's battery went completely dead two days ago, and I can't find the charger in my tiny apartment. How bizarre!!!!!!

Argh.
This is the most I can do.

I hate blog post with loads of words and no pictures, and my last few posts have been like that !

So today is Valentine's Day.
Went to Mrs. Parma (2nd time !)

Then on Valentine's day is where every restaurant will have like lovers set or other promotions to milk more money from us. Well it is only ONE of the "ONCE  A YEAR" kinda stuff  (get what I mean?).

So we ordered Lover's Chicken Parma.

The portion is really huge! Eddie's face is not exactly small, and my BB camera sucks :( 

And we finished it anyway! Man, I eat like a man. 

And that's the end of my Valentines Day.

No heartshape chocolates.

No flowers.

No nothing, just a meal on his expense! 

Man am I low maintainance or what!!

Ok I got to admit, I am very understanding ^^ Both of us are totally on our own, not getting $$ from our parents at all. Earning our own $$ makes us super calculative man. And we are kinda earning enough to survive only. So a nice meal out FTW T.T (fml). 

oh oh,
 look at the Yee Sang I decorated in a bowl ! Had a CNY gathering with friends like finally , yesterday, to LOU SANG!

hehe, tried to decorate it as closely to the ones you see in the restaurant ! Except that mine has way more generous servings of SALMON SASHIMI !
 I SUPER LOVE YEE SANG, WHY IS THIS THE REALLY AUTHENTIC ONCE A YEAR KINDA THING.