Friends that are there..

I suck in maintaining friendships.

I've met many new ones, and the relationship isn't that strong to ask them out whenever I want.

Yet I have a bunch of old comfortable friends which I go out more often..usuallly spontaneous last minute outings. This bunch / amount of friends remains stagnant.

I also have another group of medium-close friends ... in which I think I am kinda losing them. We used to be really close and then become medium - close and now!? haih.

The problem with me is I never initiate, and I am always tired.

I miss them, wish I have more time to get rested and then go out with them.

I do not want to lose the friendship,but don't know why nowadays I am feeling the urge to be alone. Not much mood for chatting online either. I just simply say whats on my mind without a second thought sometimes, or ignore all chats at once.

When I am done emo-ing, I'll grow balls to keep in touch with people then.

haih.