Just these few months..

Please just ...give me time to be alone.

I really need ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to concentrate on getting my job right and getting it done the QUICKEST way.

I also have this personal goal to achieve. I want to be the fastest person they've ever trained, because I feel accomplished when that happens.

Fastest they trained a person to trust her enough to let her do things on her own accord was 3 months. 3 months is a long time, yet u can't say its that long, because in this field...its kinda am more on the complicated side. 

True, u may ask, dont u even have time for just 1 dinner? (what happens when 5-10 diff group of friend/s asks this? It's not going to be just "1" dinner.)

I go to work slightly before 8am everyday, and leave work at around 730pm, latest 830pm...eat dinner and I sleep early, to have full concentration for work the next day, so Monday - Friday is out.

That leaves Saturday and Sunday.

Lately my dad and brother has been travelling a lot on weekends. That leaves only my mom and I. I NEED to have meals with her. It's not even a choice.

I don't even have much time with Eddie. Daily Skype routine becomes once every few days. By saying this = I NEED to be at home. 

I have a 12am curfew.

Say my brother n father doesnt travel, Saturday night, and Sunday is family time/day. Sometimes Sunday I'll go out, but I try not to, cause I hardly see my family members anymore since starting my job, except Sunday.

Saturday noon I MAY be free, but usually I'll like to sleep in and then bring my mom to temple to pray during noon.

I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN MY BEST FRIEND SINCE WE BOTH STARTED WORKING.

So how does one juggle between a full time job, family, bf, friends, I don't know.

But maybe cause I am new, that's why I have been staying back, going to work early, tiring myself. 

Partly because I really feel that..maybe..I have the potential..to go higher.

 I really want to succeed.