Who would have known, a simple word like "Fat" or "Chubby" can cause depression and in depth thinking. It can make a girl suffer no less than/as much as a broken heart. We just care too much!
....about physical outlook, about pleasing the eyes of people, about getting praises ... about everything positive that will uplift our confidence.
Even a white lie..to say that we look beautiful ... or even empty sweet talks, can even put a smile on our face. At least those words soothes our ears.
When a few people commented on my latest picture, saying I've put on weight, looking chubbier, less hot....it made me think helluva lot!
Questioning myself, how did I let this happen? Why did I eat those Tim Tams white chocolate that are bursting with extra empty calories? Why did I snatch up that last slice of pizza? Why did I finish my plate of rice/noodles? Why did I eat breakfast/lunch/dinner? Isn't that cereal 99% fat free? I am drinking light milk, right?...oh wait, Why did I even eat? They are not even good for me, for my looks.
It may sound shallow, but boys, we girls think that way. Maybe most. Don't include high-metabolism rate girls who can pig out 247.
Eating just 1/4 of a plate of yummy carbonara pasta, 2 bites of ice cream once in a blue moon, 1 piece of chocolate per week...is not the life I want to lead. I love eating. I HEART FOOD.
In the end, you can only turn to the few people who do not care if you look skinny or fat, ugly or not ... and that loves you nonetheless. Telling you.. you're ever so cute every 5 minutes, or when your face started sulking, looking very dejected .... thinking about those harsh comments that has been getting into you lately. Yeap, being called 'just' fat is harsh.
It is funny though, old friends thought I lost weight, whereas the new ones thought I gained quite a lot. Either ways, I need to brush up! I did cut down on my eatings today, but feeling quite unhappy about it.
oh why ,being a girl, we yearn for so much attention.
As much as I would like to eat my heart out, live my life to the fullest, and ignore criticism,the problem lies with the fact that I CAN'T!!!
8 comments:
I don't know why, but this picture of oui just looks more like sern than oui
HUHHH!!!!!!!!!!
no way!!!!!!!!!!
eww... lolll
Why? they essentially look the same! People who don't know them well won't be able to tell them apart!
haha, they don't look alike to me eh.
and it'll be gross to even imagine sern as the fella in the picture...!! ew. no, no way!
btw eddie and I will be back on november 22nd. Sern february for CNY!
why is sern going back so late? I will have left by then. I'll be going back on the 17th november, and leaving by the 10th february
And I still find people who call oui eddie very odd.
hmm, he wants to stay back and work. And few months ago , air asia had this promotion for the feb flight tickets being super cheap, about rm149 i think.
haha, I first knew eddie as eddie what.
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