Yesterday ate Indonesian food at EsTeller again. I ordered different stuff again. This time is Bihun Ayam. It tasted soooo heavenly even with or without kicap manis.

the soup that came with the noodle.

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THE DISHHH!!!!! look at the taugeh, veggie, mince chicken meat and sprinkled with fried shallots, with its yummy brown colour sauce. It's really tasty.the bihun, cooked to perfection.

DINNER was HORRIBLE. Had a minor food poisoning. Ate steamboat at this place and I DISLIKE IT !!! Never want to go back there. When walking back to my bf's place, my gawd, my stomach ached so badly till I can feel it pounding in my head and it made my eye sight blurry. I almost fainted, lucky I was home already and collapsed onto the bed in time. Lucky the pain is on-off, then slept , woke up and am healed this morning.

Anyway, a picture of trees surrounding my university. took it while waiting for my bus. Its autumn, the leaves are all dying away, with cool breeze brushing against my face, and soon it's going to be winter where icy chills that'll freeze any bare skin left uncoated, sigh...i hate winter. It feels like a sad season, where everything is still, frozen and dead.

As you can tell, I'm back in Geelong, sigh, shouldn't have came back today to rush for my lecture. The lecture sucked. it's as if the lecturer is reading out the powerpoint to the whole lecture hall only. Might as well call us read at home or something.


my dad's birthday yesterday, I smsed him to wish him happy birthday and he replied,

"Thank you, Take care of yourself and study hard. That is the best present for your dad"

after reading that, I think to myself, over all the years since I've entered their lives & becoming their daughter, I have done nothing except repeatedly disappointing them. I've no achievement so far, I wasted 2 years of studying and am back to square one, always argueing with them, keep changing my mind about whatever I do, doing badly in my studies, quitting everything I learn HALFWAY such as ballet, dancing, music...etc etc.

I really need an aim in my life which I'll do FOREVER, I want to be successful. I've been praying hard so that I don't disappoint my parents again but it's difficult, don't know why I've no motivation to do anything except lazing around, wasting time. everything isn't going my way, I really want to do well this time around but the environment, too much white people in my life all of a sudden, I just can't adapt.

I'll continue praying and striving for that one day ; everything I do, and everything is caused of me, that they'll beam in pride.