Sleep paralysis.

It happened again. Around the same time. When I am alone.

Scientifically, I had sleep paralysis , couldn't move,body felt heavy, because my body is in between waking up and sleeping.

Spiritually (!?) , this time at least the unseen force isn't fondling my assets and injeculate me? But I know, the whole time I was fighting with this heavy thing on top, that sent chills down my spine. Tried screaming, no voice came out, tried opening my eyes, it was tough initially, until I told myself I need to freaking fight this shit.

Well when I first opened my eyes, I saw some whitish figure (not too sure but it was extremely blurry), then the first thing I did was reach out for my phone next to my bed WHILE PRAYING FOR THIS "THING" TO FUCK OFF. It was dumb, I did manage to grab my phone somehow , and wanted to call my bf to come back immediately, but this bloody thing kept TRYING to pull my handphone off me!!! AND I KEEP HEARING IT LAUGHING/SNIGGERING THE WHOLE TIME. It's a man's voice..

After a good 5-10minutes of struggling, I finally just "woke up" (AGAIN???) like that.

Well, I had hot flushes and my body still feel the chills. =(

I am very puzzled. That's why I HATE sleeping. I only sleep when I am extremely tired. If possible I try not to sleep so much !!! Always nightmares and these kinda bullshits. F it.