:(

Finally, Eddie can't take it anymore. He blurted out today :

"I think....it is time for you to start losing weight"

When I heard that, I got extremely depressed ! I know that I have gain A LOT OF WEIGHT.

It's really sad. I cried actually. I know it's true, I am out of shape.

Many times, I've complain about my weight issue, over here, over Twitter, over Facebook, face to face, on the phone, through messages, SMS, EMAILS.....and nothing seems to have changed.

Truth is, each time I complain, I do lose a little for a short period of time, and then they go up again ! And that's when I start complaining for going back to SQUARE 1....my weight, they are extremely YO-YO. 

I am tired. Having to face this battle all the time. Why can't I be like other people. Eat normal, and MAINTAIN.

I've been working a lot lately, too ....walk , stand, clean, sweat doing those... I've stopped pigging out on ice cream since weeks ago, even if I do consume them, it is in very small quantities ( 1 teeny scoop). Still, my weight stays up, and still increasing.

I eat two normal meals a day - meat rice vegetables. 

What did I do in my past life to deserve this life :( The only way to maintain weight, it seems...is to eat fruits and nothing else..