Beauty woes.

1) To look pretty/YOUR BEST with thick make up that spoils skin...that later leads to bad skin condition/pale face is better 

OR

2) To look not so pretty without make up at all? But your looks will stay that way...won't deteriorate much from the chemicals of the make up?

Honestly, I find myself asking that question everyday...whether to look better fake, or look uglier/ original. 

Last time I was damn confident to go outside with absolutely no make up. 

Since I started working, I then learnt more about make up stuffs and know how to enhance my dull features and start piling those shytz into my face.

After quite sometime of slight make up to thick make up everyday, I decided to just quit make up for few days. I found that my face actually look SLIGHTLY distorted and very colourless ! I don't look like myself few years back - the time whereby I RARELY put make up ! 

❤1 Without make up (only moisturizer slabbed on my face, absolutely nothing else). TBH, its one of my best picture. Others are just....atrocious!  

❤2 With BB cream on my face , mascara and darkened my eyebrows.

❤3Everything slabbed on my face..eyeliner,mascara,eyebrow darkening...

❤4 With thick make up, I am more confident to make "ugly" faces.

Do I look very different? Although a lot of people said I don't look very different with or without make up (at least not like those shown in Taiwanese reality shows), but still, I went ahead to destroy my skin -_-

I mean I know absolutely all the hot girls out there with thick make up, probably are facing a more severe problem than I do. But how can they live, showing the pretty side, knowing that their skin is dying inside? Knowing that, they are damaging their skin each day they put the inches thick make up .

on a side note: your skin ages 5  -7 days in one night, if you don't remove your make up. This is how bad make up is for you.

I want to do that but yet I don't want. Le sigh. They can hide away forever, but I don't like hiding away in my room each time I am without make up. I want to be confident everywhere, with/without make up.

I've been depressed ever since Eddie said "You look better last time naturally, now ...all the make up seems to take up all the colours off your face"


=[ seriously, boo hoo.