Finally, some pictures!

My 1 week in KL was very, very well spent.  Spent time solely with my family and relatives (except for 1 friend, who even called my cousin up to look for me, you know who you are - I was kinda touch TBH although you pinched my cheek and called me fat).

During that one week, I felt the love of my family members, relatives and a few friends who came looking for me.

Although it was my grandfather's funeral, I didn't know what to feel. Just yesterday my cousin ask me how did I feel about all these. I answered " dumb". Stupid answer, but that's the only word that's in my mind to describe how I feel. Not numb cause I am definitely feeling something, but dumb, cause I don't know where the feelings are heading.

I feel sad, yet happy. I feel heartbroken, yet loved. I feel sick and tired, yet motivated. I feel that I need some rest, yet I refuse to sleep.

For example, my grandfather passed away, I was darn sad. Sad that I didn't get to say my goodbyes, nor even get to see him when he was sick , nor get to send him to do his kidney dialysis. But yet, I get to see my family. My brother this time round, really pampered me. For the first time in my life, I actually feel that my brother cares about me. He brought me out to eat and paid for my meals!  So it was sad/regret + love/thankfulness.

This was what I felt. A lot of clashes of feelings.

Just today, my boss hugged me, telling me she felt sorry for my grandfather's death. She asked about it, and at that moment, I felt like I want to cry.

Even yesterday while working...thoughts of my grandfather came up. Probably cause work was too boring and repetitive that I can do it without using much brainpower, hence my thoughts kinda drifted away - to think about how short life is and all of a sudden , my grandfather's cheeky face pops up.

He lovesssssssssss joking with me and always give me this cheeky smile. Imagine, an old man's cheeky grin. Like he'll say "Siow Ling, help me look for my orange, I dropped it on the floor". I will then bend down and look high and low for his oranges, but can't find any..then when I turn to look at him wanting to ask where he dropped them, he'll be laughing away ! :( Gosh , can't believe I'll never see him ever again when I go back home.

Sigh. Okay, time to get started with the pictures..
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While waiting for my flight back home..

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 Sucky...sucky food.

Thats salted potato with dry lamb and tasteless mashed-in-the-insides long bean

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 Once landed, dressed in blue and proceeded immediately with the prayers for my grandfather's funeral. The picture above was taken because I was testing my cousin's iPhone4!

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My brother brought me out to eat lunch because the caterer for my grandfather's funeral serves nice food only when they're in the mood for it. But most of the time, they were in very foul mood in my guessing.

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 My brother brought me to this place that serves beautiful desserts - ALMOST LIKE THE ONE I SERVE IN MELBOURNE- and Japanese food! Its in a restaurant in The Gardens. Hokaido something.

 This eel dish on top is delectable ! Loved it.

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Manage to go to all the malls I want. Pavilion, The Gardens/ Midvalley, 1Utama, and Sungai Wang.

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Also went to Fahrenheit 88, the NEW MALL IN MALAYSIA!

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 Spent time with my cousins!

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Had mamak! Something I didn't do last summer, whereby I had 3 months holidays...and in this 1 week of holiday, I manage to go once! What an achievement!

Even went clubbing. But I look horrible the whole night.

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Flew back home, and got hangover in the plane.

Sleep, wake up...and its time to go work.

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 Typical day in boring Melbourne.

❤12 Came back home to Eddie's surprise 

❤13 Sleep, wake up...get ready for work again:

No rest. Tiring man.

I look weird in a lot of pictures cause of my eyes. They looked deformed cause I am really exhausted. Lacking sleep. I sleep a few hours a day only for 1 week. 

Flew back Malaysia , didn't had rest, started immediately with helping out with the funeral, and whenever there's time I go out..come back Melbourne, immediately start work.

Sigh, I miss home and a relaxing life. I look tired 247 nowadays.

I am very contented with my current life. Everyday I pray in my heart to let time pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee pass slower. Because I love my parents in my current life. My cousins who are my cousins this life. People around me now. I like their existence. And hope that the time with them will never end. Or at least pleaseeeeeee let time pass slower because I am contented with my life now. If only life is forever.