Yes I have all the time in the world to watch Youtube, eBay , and also update my blog but those are leisure stuff. They make me happy, and carefree.
Once I get into my serious mode with my assignment, my mind gets spinning with so many other "serious" things :
1) Constantly looking for apartments to move it.
- It has to be now, cause we need an apartment that's available by early June so that Eddie and I can move together. He's leaving on June 17th, and I have to be done with moving by early June cause my exams are near, and if I were to move after Eddie goes home....I seriously don't know how the FUCK I am going to manage things alone.
Tonnes of washing, packing, moving, applying to move in/out from the management (stupid apartment rule), unpacking....and only Eddie and I know our things best.
2) Money issue for next semester in the long-run.
-Before you start pointing your index finger at my shopping spree, the money I spent now.. it is MOST PROBABLY a one off thing, or once in a while thing, AND its something that I can live without spending on them.
-Once I move into my new apartment, I'll be tied with Heavy Fixed Cost. Weekly AUD 320-400 a week for a confirmed 2 months. And after that, depends on how Eddie perform on his presentation tomorrow that will determine if he gets his internship job in Australia or not.
I HATE uncertainties.
3) Peer Pressure for some club stuff
- 4-5th time I am being approached !! I wish I can tell them one of the main reasons why I am not interested.
-I CAN'T possibly PR for people I don't like, at all. Just for that particular person...
-As much as I would like to join, I need to work next semester to reduce my Heavy Fixed Cost of my parents.
- I want a more free final semester please..
- I am even thinking of passing down from my own club at my own university, how much more join yours?
-I am not made out of metals, screws and everlasting batteries.
My course is assignment based, boring report based...even club stuffs are all writing of report. I am actually burnt out from writing things that I have to be formal with ! Thats why I am so..."shouting" from my blog here.
Even if you see OUT THERE IN MELBOURNE STREETS, I am happy especially for moments where I suddenly forget this heavy weight on my shoulders, but when I think of them again, I just don't enjoy fully anymore.
4) I don't feel at ease in the current place I am staying.
Somehow these few days before and when my assignment and even after it's due, the whole apartment is damn noisy.
The idiot brought a bunch of friends home and play dice aka put-dice-in-the-cup-and-shake-like-fuck, when numbers are shown, losers moans, winners screams.
Apart from that, don't know why the eyesore is always at home recently. WHY? When I do work in the living room, kept talking to me when I am reading through my notes to freaking get started on my assignments. I did not reply to his lame questions also, he kept asking. talkingtalkingtalking.please GET THE HINT!!
Then yeahla, Sigh, unluckily Eddie's presentation is due on Monday. He has been practising on top of his lungs. Can't stop him from practising cause his whole next semester is dependant on it, but yet can't do work with the noise...
5) P suppose to come, had signs of it coming, but suddenly it stopped. Guess stress paused the process.
hating my life at this point right now.
So looking forward to moving to my new place, with hopefully peace and quiet..
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