Day 18: exhaustionnnn.

Its not just from the work, but the fact that I am always eating and then sitting...no time to exercise, and I felt really fat and sluggish.

So, I MADE TIME for exercise.

Been resting till 12am after dinner at 8pm from work, and then exercise till 1am. Did it for 2 days, waking up at 7+am for work...GOd, I am all tired out, sleeping average of 5hrs a day... work out + work.

I really tried walking more in office, but I was obese last time. I need vigorous exercise to burn the stubborn fats, not light exercises i.e. walking. But no time at all!!!!!!!! Carried weights/heavy stuffs, jog-on-the-spot, hop and jump around when no one's looking....it never helped. AT ALL.

Its either I sacrifice sleep, or sacrifice my work out and lose the confidence. But sleep is essential. I am losing my sanity. Looking all tired and stressed up when my internship is not even hard to do. Just lacking some resting time.

Really freaking jealous for people who has high metabolism.

Dieting never works for me. Everytime I eat less, the next time I eat more than normal, my weight will go up 2 folds. But usually, I don't really eat that much either. 4 super soft raisin buns (from Bread Top) for breakfast (must eat like a king what!) , eat half a portion of an outside meal...and just fish and veggies at home for dinner. (Loads of durians though, but I pooped it out on a daily basis at Pavilion, lol)

Durian cured my constipation!! WOohoo!

How do I keep fit/maintain/lose weight? sigh. I don't want to go back to square one. My clothes gets tighter BY THE WEEK.

The belt I was wearing in the top picture was like a hula hoop when I first bought it, and now it's tight.

All of a sudden, my boob level buttons starts looking like its about to pop out, and my mum will nag me.

Mom: Why didn't you sew extra buttons for your clothes (as in in-between the actual buttons of buttoned-clothes)! People can see the insides.

Me: It wasn't like this when I first bought it last week. The clothes got tighter just this week.

FML!!!