Santa Michelle.

Spent a bomb today, my wallet feels so super light!! I just realized I've got to buy 5 presents for 5 different individuals. OMXXX!!

I can even open a folder of pictures of the gifts, but not appropriate to like show it off as I have not given out any of them yet.

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I bought 3 gifts in total. 2 out of 5 actually. The 3rd gift bought is mine...aka for myself ! :(

I have succumbed to temptations ! Remember this book that can be locked ?

I finally gave in and bought it. After say, a few months?

If something you want is constantly always on your mind, you have to buy it, right? This diary, though nothing spectacular about it, stayed put on my mind.

It's not much for the design, but for the practicality and the "security" it offers. Especially with the lock...I know it can easily be broken into, but people who are close to me should be understanding enough to know that the lock means it's OUT OF BOUNDS. And no one can read it that easily, and put it back to the exact same spot , at the exact same dust I left my diary on.

This shall be the book that I'll turn to..whenever I'm feeling low, rather than trying to write password-protected post here. Though there are some post here that ought to be password-protected, I think they are vague enough ... I guess too lazy to find html codes to password-protect them

Talking about diaries...I know its quite a childish thing to do, and not that I do it often anyway. You know why?

Because there are something with mothers and reading their child's diaries.

I remember when I was a very young child, say before 10 years old, I've a lockable book , similar to this. The cheaper-in-RM version kind, not as AUD (Australian Dollar) as this. It went missing! Never found it till this day.

So I began writing in notebooks, notepads...but I jolly well know my mom reads them, hence I stop writing by all means. She likes to come into my room and "hang out" in there. My diary was always placed at the exact same spot as where I left it, but I just know my mom read it. It's in her face. She also opens my letter during the snail mail days....and even read my sms when my phone is not with me until college (about 18 years old) FML! Talking about privacy and personal space! I have none.

So late 2 years ago, I started writing again. I was in a state where I got no one to turn to, so I took out an empty book and started writing vigorously. Thats when it all started again.

That time I was quite an introvert, always at home, always safeguarding it. Then been writing once in a while, until I came here for the first time first year, and went back. And now second year, its LEFT IN MALAYSIA.

Since I realized that my private possession (the diary) is left back home when I reached here, the first few months was horrible. I kept fearing my mom would read it even more. This time, the diary entries written are ..more "mature".

I can't call back home to tell her to not go to this particular space near a particular shelf of my room, as this will intrigued her to further "explore" MY FORBIDDEN AREA during her free time (human nature). So the only thing I can do is keep quiet and pray.

With this new LOCKABLE diary I bought, as long as I swallow the keys in my stomach, and vomit them out whenever needed, she won't have the chance to see them! What a good investment this AUD20 was ! Unless she decided to take it again without my knowledge and break it open. Considering we are now older and more wiser than previous years, I doubt if she'll do it again. :)!